` eqa-lurfes*

2010-03-23T17:03:00.003+08:00

ive been seriously craving for nasi ayam penyet from lucky plaza since two weeks ago.
bby was pretty busy with work so we got no chance to get that nasi ayam penyet. we even has not get the chance of going out together for the past 2 weeks. we only met at work. sadness):

im craving for jobs too. pleasse someone help me with finding a job. hundreds of applications sent,hundreds of interviews gone to but nothing that was accepted. how??? fcuking sad and jobless rite now. prettypretty pls. ):

2010-02-24T01:21:00.002+08:00

i never had a dream come true.

today i went for an interview at zara's HR. so it went smoothly but im not sure whether i can get or not. but insyaallah i can get. wish me luck. (:

so after went for interview with my sister, we went all the way from macpherson to orchard to shop. we walked all around town till my leg sore. ahahaha.. kakak kakak, u cn still walk even though we walk so far. hahahah. then we went home ard 9. took train to marina bay and we bounce back to yewtee. it took us 1 hour. and there comes the "PENG" inside the train. hahahah.. funny!~ den we went home. and now im home doing nothing from just now except for facebook-ING. hahahah.. okay lah. i miss bby(:

goodnight!

i love zaifulrulah!~

2010-02-19T02:34:00.002+08:00

CINTA - MUHD ZAIFULRULAH!~

do u noe how much i love him.

the love can not be describe as my love for him is too deep inside.

u noe,the fights everything, all ended up with still the love towards each other.

and that is why its very hard for me to leave him.

how he treated me, its really the best. never same like previous ones. even AN! NO&NEVER!

actually the whole thing i wanted to express was only tt i love him! to let everyone noe.

that he is mine. and forever will.

i love zaiful!~

2010-02-03T22:48:00.002+08:00

3 more days and im done with it(:

im sleepy but im waiting for boyfie to sent me something(: btw ive got my pay from my full time job. and yes for the very first time, i spent alot for only my personal things. i spent $250 for my Aldo bag and Shades &make up sets from body shop and bby's perfume(: weee!~ i so love it.. hahahaah... i bought bby the perfume but he doesnt noe.. cos its supposed to be a present for him(: oh ya... and a wallet from wallet shop. its a present from me cos he've treated me on my shoppings lat month so its my turn... hehehehe... dont tell bby k. lovelove!~

okay la i need to go.. i wanna sleep! tmr working but bby is not here yet):

okay lah bye!~

i love zaifulrulah(:

2010-01-19T22:45:00.002+08:00

bby was superbly nice... i love him.. weee!~ i got nothing to post actually. just that something about sunday.

first thing first, we went out early morning. which is at 11. he picked me up at home nd we rode to bugis. i was superbly hungry and so he treated me to fish&co. since ive treated him last week, he treateed me back. hahaha.after eat, we walk all around bugis junction and then to bugis street and then to iluma the new shopping centre there. it was nice. alah byk sgt lah nk crita.. mls uhs.. hehheheeheh.. overall aku cinta aja bby aku kkkkk((:

nk tido! besok kerja! boring! nite(:

i love ZAIFULRULAH!

2010-01-13T23:43:00.003+08:00

firstly i wanna wish everyone here a happy new year. wish u all a blessed and wonderful 2010

hello 2010 , goodbye 2009!~

and 1/2 a years gone , more years to come.

currently a big problems hanging and happening in our relationship. we were not sure whats happening also lah. but we intend to have fights over fights. why? dont ask me. it either comes from a small matter which will lead us to a big fight. ive had enough of fighting and quarelling. everytime it ended with him saying sorry. i sometimes pity him tt he is trying to patient with me. i somehow dont really noe whhy i am always doing this to him. whatever happend or whatever tht we are quarelling over he is always the one saying sorry. i would NEVER. we were planning to get engaged on our first year. everytime we quarrelled, he will always thinking of post-poneing our engagement. im somehow gets angry with him over tt. nd tt makes us gets into BIG fight. 2010 doesnt seem to be really changing. its so hard. with fights, no job, no money. nothing. nothing gets better. butbutbut. no matter how big our problem is, how much we scold each other, we do still love each other. and i love him so much. i really want to live my life with him forever. see, only 1 day tt i didnt meet him. but ive already missed him. cheh!

i went for an interview ytd. and she was supposed to call me today to tell me whether im accpeted or not. yes she did but she said only by next week she will confirm with me coz her partner is on an overseas trip. insyaallah i will get. doa2kn okay people!~ (: i called another company also. they said they will call me for an interview soon. if i dont get the first job, insyaallah the second one k. just pray for me hard. im too stress staying at home for almost a year doing nothing! grrrr!~

sundayy gg shoppppinnngg with B! weee!~ he's treating me((:

P.S: lately ive been thinking bout wat i can do. been so stress to fall bacck in love with you. (NEVER WILL I WANT)

LOVE ; ZAIFULRULAH

2009-12-30T02:44:00.002+08:00

no one reads my blog animore i think. but i dont care. just blog when i wished to k. heheh

today, i did nothing at home. work at 4 and finishes at 12. as usual. today yazid dont wanna talk to me. he PULAU me at work. hahah. kurangasam dia. so i was all the way quiet till someone asks me why. i said nothing nd go. hehehe. nd yes b was supposed to fetch me from work. but he fall asleep nd i had to go home by train. nd theres the thoughtful nd kind friend of mine, yana she went home with me((;

nd yahhhh. btw, i was godegode-ING with my phone nd TUP! it went blank. nd i cant on my phone unless i get the PUK cade. PUK-I tol. so i got no phone with me for the whole day! nd i will to M1 tmr no matter wat. CHEY!

nd yes im working at 8 till closing tomorrow! omg! mcm mana nk tahan nie. hiakdush!
nd i cant sleep YET! boring sey. mau ngantok je aku bsok. CB!

okay la..i wanna try go slp k.((:

BF aku BABI! sbb dia tdo mcm BABI spi tk jd fetch aku from work. boddddooh!!!!

okay la .

whatever it is, i love zaiful k(:

2009-12-02T16:30:00.003+08:00

hellohello:)

im currently at home. boring.
not working today. not working nor going anywhere.
had sum misunderstanding ytd. nothing much. get it done nd over with.

working tmr. not working with the gerek ppl. but after closing, the managers are treating us to late dinner at sempang bedok. its because of the goos CMS & CER last 3rd quarter. GREAT!

eat all out tmr with the great ppl of PH. nicenice!
i miss my best bro though. he's no longer working that often.
so no one to talk to me and talk craps with me. haiya.

nd ya..MUS is asking me nd offering me as a MANAGER at PH. but what i told him is, im not too sure. give me time to think about it. as... being a manager at pizza hut which i see is that, im not gonna have much time. i will obviously spent much time at the store. always.... haiya. so, i might have to think about it first. if im a manager. den everyone have to see me as the top. not the irritating girl at PH anymore. hahahhah.

okay okay lah. i think im cuming back to azp. im missing dance now, haiya. soosoo miss it.

so azp, i will come back soon when im free. next week maybe. weee!~

okay lah i think its enuf here. im tired.

got to go. daaa!~

i love zaifulrulah!

2009-11-25T20:22:00.002+08:00

believe it or not im holding on to a laptop. which is not mine lah. hahaha
ive sent my resume to most of the companies. hope to hear from them very very soon.
im off tdy nd tmr. doing nothing today. all the way at home. hubby working nd im home like stupid.
not meeting him tdy. meeting him only tmr. going dbl o.
with the ph's ppl. with muz, mai nd maybe dino. hahah.

wat a great day tmr.
mum's going to terengganu tmr with the rest. ;eft home is me, kakak nd abg. so party ah abh tk tau.
kita adeq beradeq celebrate hari raya haji alone. haiyak!hahah.

so i'll update again about the dbl o thingy tmr k.. wooohooo!~

get it on hubby. we'll get thru it okay.
hang on for at least some more time. i love you alot zaiful.

eqa love emuhammad zaifulrulah!~

2009-11-24T13:50:00.002+08:00

hellohello belo! hahaah

currently at civics mac. with kak ikin. borrowed her laptop to send resume. hahah
we did nothing. update of our long never talk craps. hahha. boring uhs.

so wat happened yesterday??
it was muz's birthday at 12 midnight so the people working was me, b , shufi , yana, adi, mai, and 1 new guy. inclusive of muz also lah. so we decided to sabo him after closing. so we did. he was sabo-ed by us at 12 midnight with pizza sauce, cheese, pepsi and soap water. ahahah. he looks like with vomit around him. disgusting. hahah. fun2!
so sorry bff. its like once in a year rite. hahah.
whatever it is, happy birthday bff. lovelove you. (takmo jealous eh yana. kita bff aja. hahahah)
lovelove you too yana. hahahha

okay2 gtg la. bye!

i love ZAIFUL!

2009-11-17T15:25:00.003+08:00

hellohello again. sorry again for the late update.
you should noe that my comp is having problems. haiya.
i will only update like once a week like that okay. since my friend is very good enuf to borrow me her laptop. hahah.
im currently at nads home. she very nice. haha. want to lend me her laptop. her new home is awesome dok. ahhaha.

i dont noe what to update actually. nothing in mind, im just keeping it alive. as so many people had been saying that my blog is dead. haiya. sorry lah k.
kk i think i gtg. im late for work. okay dada!

eqa love zaiful okay. remember that. (:

getting bored with projects!!

2009-10-29T19:25:00.002+08:00

hellohello(:

im really2 sorry about not updating my blog. my comps okay but my internet is having problems. so currently im with my madrasah's friends doing our project which was suppose to be handed in last week. haha. thats so lazy of us lah. so currently im at jurong libs. "studying". NOT! hahaha.

okay so now i think its better for me to update something that u guys are suppose to noe maybe.

im getting happier with zaiful. we're turning to 4 months on the 7th! hehehe. im so so happy. i love you aloot baby.

B, we've promise alot nd i noe u love me nd i love u. we'll struggle to the end ok. i love love you! yay. btw ive turned 18 on 9th oct. nd yes ive gone to club where i used my own I.C! hahahah. no more illegal in. hahahah. nd baby gonna bring to zouk out this year. yay!

nd currently im still looking for a full time job. been to so many interviews but to no avail. no answers. nothing. so just wait lor. hmmm. fucking irritated with all the companies. urghh. nd im still struggling over PH's roster which i dont usually get all. haiya. mai is sending me to the star course. which will make my pay higher. but its just the same. i rather not go for the star course if im still gonna struggle till the end. i dont wanna be a permanent PH staff. haiya.

baby leaving ph soon nd i dont wanna stay there. not only baby lah. most of them are going to peng to DOMINO. haiya. so i think i have to keep looking for a job. haiz. okay lah people. i have to go. i have to finish my projects. later my friend all bising. hahah. got to go!

will update again very2 soon! i promise! see ya!((:

i love my baby muhammad zaifulrulah! ahaahaha.. bye

LOVED

zaiful

2009-09-04T00:00:00.002+08:00

hellohello((:

i just got back home from meeting yana. we met just because i forgot to bring her bag yesterday. nd den we gossiped again. haha. normal lah. once eqa nd yana meet up we'll confirm have so many things to talk about. hahah. yana, aku sukeee! msg2 tu sume dr dektu. haha. tk bole angkat. "lu pe hal?!" haha. lepak-ed for awhile nd we decided to meet up with MIKE at YTCC cos he's working. since my DEAREST BOYFRIEND is with his friends so i take the advantage to meet MIKE. hahaa. tkda la. go there just "hilangkan" rindu pade mike aja. hehehe. after which we went back home since yana's mom called to ask her go home. nd my boyfriend too. so we went home((: meeting tmr at store at 1130 pm which is after closing. nd im so lazy to come. since boyfriend is working, i take the advantage to come down to meet him since its the 3rd day today that i didnt met up with him. hahahha. lgpn byk plan la bsk. so meeting up the peoples tmr at work. kecoh pe! k aku da merepek. ive got no idea wat to blog more actually. hehehe. will update more next time lah k((:

^^ we had a misunderstanding yesterday which made him really mad at me.

P.S: im really sorry honey. i promise it wont happen again. I LOVE YOU

LOVED;

zaiful

2009-09-03T02:47:00.002+08:00

im so tired but i cant sleep. i dont noe why. ohh i got bad feelings. im so scared! why??? my eyes are shutting but i got something better to do by talking on the phone with honey((:
however there's always something to talk about no matter we talked everyday. ohh i so love him.
im getting bored as im off till friday! haiz.

nd yah. i met eliyana after buka just now. we gossiped again. hahah. all my secrets are with her and her secrets are with me. im secure with her. haha. never mind. nd u noe why im updating? cos i cant sleep. YET! boyfriend got nothing to do but can still tahan with my nonsense. lovelove((:

P.S:i noe somehow u are angry with me but u r just keeping it from me. i noe im not that good in yr eyes. pls love. i love u. forgive me will you??

LOVED;
zaiful

2009-09-02T23:06:00.002+08:00

skakiesmekia*

my twin sister(:

kembar tk serupa<3

my lovely friends that ive been missing so much. its all because of efa's birthday that we met. ohh how much i miss them and at last we get to meet((:

miss them alot2. had the small birthday celebration for efa. &yes all the misses are being paid off. how much i want to meet them again. i so cant wait for hari raya. since we might not be meeting this week. hmmm. ((:

&&im sorry for the not been updating. been quite busy and such. so im done here. ive got no time to post so much about. mostly u can read at yana's blog lah. since mostly the posts in hers are much likely about me too((: im loving my boyfriend.. hehe. its gonna be our 2nd month soon. and i cant wait. ((:

ohh ya. i went buka at his home yesterday. damn it i was very nervous to meet his family. i hardly talk when i was there. i will only talk when his mom or anyone talks to me. his whole family was there. wat do u expect eh. hahah. so far it was fine and all. i dont noe what did his parents and the other family members have said about me. i hope nothing bad.. hehehe. whatever it is, thanks alot for the nice foods and such that was prepared by yr family dear. im so much appreciated. lovelove you((:

thats all i can say. will update soon. very soon. ohh im hunger for job. pls help me. ive had enuf of staying home.. ):

okay la. gtg.. see you!!((:

LOVED;

zaiful

2009-08-17T03:49:00.002+08:00

it has never been the truth. my life's are just full of craps. never once i feel happy. why? there's just this word as "UNLUCKY". i've been crying since just now. i was happy plus sad. happy cos my bf shows nd proves to me how much he loves me even tho with all the outcomes have been stressing me. sad cos im just not feeling right. yes im lucky to have him. but most of it im just unlucky for getting this life of mine. im just stress. too stress with life. why must it be so hard. never once i get to feel th joy of love. getting one true love is hard nd once i get it, i make use of it. i never get serious. NEVER. but i just dont noe why. has it been me or something else. truthfully ive been asking myself: "what do i want in this world" , "why do i need love" but i never noe nd never get the answer. its all plain thots in me. im really thankful to have my bestfriend that has been helping me smile nd laugh. but why must it be for awhile nd den its gone. can u just please help me once? do not ever lie to me. ive had enuf of lies from different2 people. just once, make me happy will u?

im down with depression nd stress-NESS.

help me will anyone? PLS

*crying very badly

2009-08-14T16:33:00.000+08:00

still pictures cant be uploaded.

eh, hello people!~ ive took out my cast ytd. basically bf pick me up at 830 in the morning to go to NUH for my appoinment. nd eh yessa! now i can see my hand nd my hand is back to normal. only that its not fully heal yet nd i hardly move my rite hand. hahah. okay so after that which is at 1230 we picked yana up from her home. she was late. biasa lah dia. hahah. bf drove us too bugis. shop shop shop nd den to town. shop shop shop nd we had nowhere to go. but its only 830. since bf is the driver we told him to just go anywhere that u think is gd enuf for us to lepak. at last no idea we went to PH. since yana's ehem working. hahah. she very malu2. den he also never talk much. aiya all because today got date rite. haha. kecoh uh kau yana. after which we headed to yana's home to see her catwalk with her heels. since she bought heels for today's date. hahahhahh. she look good. really2. not lying. seriously if that person doesnt fall for her kn mmg bodoh sey. i think she'll take her photo. we'll see if she uploads to her blog. if yes. i tell u guys u gonna look at her pic not once uhs. hahah. ((:

nd today, i woke up real early to go to work. i was actually late. i start at 9 but i woke up at 8 nd was still in my towels at 830. haiya. so since i was already late, i took the taxi noeing that there will be traffic jam. but since im not in the mood nd i think its best still to take the cab, i did. the traffic jam at PIE was like shit uhs! i wasted 30 bucks just to go SGH at outram! reached workplace, i went to meet my supervisor. nd yes since i still have to wear my armsling, i cant work much. doctor told me to have light duties. but since my job is heavy duties nd have to attend to patients so they decided to leave me. so im jobless rite now! what a waste 30 bucks on cab nd i can go home at 10?? dont u think my department at SGH is like fuck. in the first place my agent doesnt say anything. CB! fuck and i have to find a new job rite now. stupid. as if i wan this accident to happen. haiya. enuf of this lah. my sweet lil friend going on a date nd she was damn nervous just now. she called me, i calmed her nd yes i think shes on the bike rite now. hahah. babe, relax okay((: and im meeting my bf in a while. i havent had my shower, havent siap yet. nd its already going to 5. he's fetching me at 6. god damn it seh. haha. okay lah. i think i gtg. have to dress myself up ready. mati if he reached i havent get dressed. haha. okay lah. will update anything soon again(:

LOVED

2009-08-12T20:28:00.000+08:00

i dont noe what happen to this blog. i cant upload pic. okay nevermind. yesterday me, bf & yana went somewhere ard woodlands before heading up to fetch shy&helmi from their place to go johor. sent yana home and den the four of us which is me, bf, shy &helmi went to jb. bf drove there. helmi drove back home. went to jb just for pump oil. hahah. kecoh ehk. den we lepak-ed at my block for a while nd den we went home.

today, im at home whole day. nd tmr is my best day for almost 30 days at home. my cast can be taken out tmr nd im going shopping w yana nd boyfriend tmr!yay! weeee! lets go shopping tmr baby! ((:

nothing to say. i wanna watch my drama! bye!(:

see you again!

LOVED

2009-08-07T23:12:00.003+08:00

i followed bf & most of th PH people to JB on tues to eat seafood. with.. MUSTAFA along. hahah. it was damn kecoh. there was 9 rider & iclusive f 4 pillions. so total was 13 people. it wasnt expected to be that kecoh. haha. whatever it is the foods was damn good. but as usual i never finish it. i mean i did. but i never tambah2 like others la. haha.

on wed plak i receive a very shocking msg from this kental friend of mine that shes having a date with that someone who is quite special for her. hahah. im happy fr u dear.(: but i stayed home. haha. cos shes going fr a date. nd i got no friend to ajak lpk. haha.

on thurs,ayu came to my hse. i wasnt feeling good. i was having back aches & running nose the day before. nd i feel like getting sick. so intention was to go doctor. but in the end ayu brought me to her workplace to take application form? timesheet? whatever lah to send to alvin at novena. since i got nothing to do i just followed her. dgn hidung irritating2 jgk aku pergi. hahah. selekeh2 pon pergi.
after that this kpo friend of eliyana, which is me very kpo nd anxious wanting to noe the story about her date ytd. so we met. biasa la.. eqa nd yana skrg da jd minah2 gossip. hahaha. nd so we met gossip2 nd discussed abt my birthday party. everything is under control. dont worry. 2 weeks before my bday, i will let you guys noe k.. ((: nd den my bf came down fr awhile. chitchat with the minah kental ketawe2 den off to home.

today, yan brought me to watch harry potter since so long he promised to watch with me. hahah. we watched at 1250. he was late so i bully him. pantat. he bls balek sey dtg lbt. CHEH! harrypotter ended at 315. instead of going for eat straight cos i was damn hungry, he asked me to buy another ticket to watch G.I Joe. pantat. he say he wants to have a movie marathon. sial. nd i waste 18.50 tdy for 2 movie! god damn it. naseb baek G.I Joe was not bad. diffrentiate G.I Joe nd Harry Potter. G.I Joe is much more better. so its worth the 10 buck i waste for G.I Joe cos its after 5. CHEH! after buying the tix den we went to eat at MAC. asal klua ngn kau yan, aku asek mkn MAC aje. mana aku tk gemok. haiya. haha. it ended ard 730. den we jln2 fr awhile nd den home sweet home! yay!

so... i went out almost everyday this week. nd2 do not get angry if 1 movie u watched was not good. go have a movie marathon nd try to get a better movie. its worth yr money. haha. thats if you hv alot of money lah. hhaahah.

get ready for staying home from sat to next thur eqa.. hahaha!

ive got nothing much to say.

remember bestfriend, if u get a bf on my bday. i dont need anything else for my present from u. thats gd enuf. ((: i love u.

i so want that CHARLES&KEITH sandal!! who want to get tt fr me?!
nvr mind. sandal, wait for me next week k.(:

bye!

LOVED!

2009-08-03T14:38:00.002+08:00

sungguh aku boring!
ive been lepak-ING at home since saturday.
boyfriend working. bestfriend working&busy w school.
boredboredbored!

can someone pls bring me out! prettypretty pls!
kaki aku da gatal nak klua. hahaah.
tmr might be following bf to jb.
thats tmr. what abt tdy?? haiyer. pls!
sapa2 nak lepak ker. pls! hahahah

i miss you.(:

LOVED

2009-08-01T19:06:00.004+08:00

yana: "SC! SC!" hahahah

klua ngan si mentel , aku pon jd mentel. haha

coli, cast mau simpan eh eqa!

si minah2 mentel nie went out yesterday.

i headed to yana's hse as usual for the make up. she helped me twice nd im proud of her work & she does to. hahah.

we den headed to outram to meet Raha to take timesheet from SGH and den we headed down to suntec to meet my agent. after which we went separate ways with raha. she went home& the both of us went for our late lunch at marina square. kenyang areadi as usual routine. sambil2 we camwhore. welll girls. hahah.

each others hp da mcm camera nikkon tpy padehal camera phone. hahah.walk down the bridge in mind theres a fireworks but ya NO! hahah. so went ended up walking to fullerton hotel's toilet. wow! the hotel is happening shit ah. damn it. hahah

camwhore everywhere we stop. walked down around clarke quay as well chit chatting befr head down to ph at 1100. talked rubbish&so. laughed & eventually i enjoyed my day&nite with my lovely minah mentel ELIYANA.

hahhaha. apparently went out with her i myself become so mentel in the photos taken. as u can see up there. wanna see more go to my facebook aite. hahaah. all along photos wants to be snap.. this line always come out from my mouth or yana's... "ok . gambar mesti mentel. step SC k" or "eqa, coli cast kau simpan eh." haha.

funny la. even though the day was spent with only the 2 of us, it was seriously well spent.

headed down to ph at 1230. reached there was only zaiful, mizan, wan vespa , mai &mustafa. yana was damn dissapointed. hehehe.

went to wan's hse nd had absolute. they not me. i wasnt in the mood to drink ytd. maybe i was too tired. yana tipsy aready. talked about someone she very segar! hahah. fall asleep &woke up at 530 to go home. zaiful sent me home & ya slept at 730 till 4 just now.. hahaha. kecoh..

nd yana, do not feel upset nimore k. go see his face puas2 at work tdy. hlgkn rindu smlm.

i so miss someone yana!! heheh.

overall, i love my time spent with my bestfriend. i love you oi!

we shud go out only the two of us again mentel2 around singapore after ur N's k. hahah. love ya! till next time.

LOVED;

mr mawas

2009-07-26T22:18:00.002+08:00

three besties at work.((:

we were supposed to watch fireworks but we ended walking round bugis&meeting the 'kesian' tue-kia at lido.hahaha.i dont have th time to story-telling much abt yesterday. but since so long aft th accident, i enjoyed myself with my friends till 5 in th morn yesterday. after waiting almost 2 hrs fr the rest of them to arrive, we watched "the hangover" at cenei. its a MUST to watch ok. (:

&&i was being MANJE-ed with my friends yesterday since i was th "disabled" person thruout th day with th cast still on. hahah. where yana, lighting up a cigg fr me. helping me with my food. (: where yan carried my bag almost half th day we were tgth. aft the rest came, my bag da mcm prostitute. skjp dkt zai, skjp dkt zaiful, & 1 more person i forgot. hahah. where i was being CARED by my friends. i feel so manje&blessed to have these people. thanks alot aite. hehehe. alah.. ni part aku nga "disabled" je. cube aku da baik nty. tkda org heran.. hahaha..

kla. im running out of werds. just thanks to my friends whom have made me happy yesterday since so long i was "trapped" at home. thanks alot. love ya! got to go. till next time.(:

LOVED!

MrMawas(:

2009-07-18T12:34:00.002+08:00

remember i had a 4 days of mc?
nd yeah. it was extended to another 28 days of mc.
god damn it.

after th 4 days mc, ive started work.
but i only came half day as i hav to go fr an appoinment in the afternoon.
went fr th appointment at NUH & i got an additional of 28 days mc coz my doctor said my fractured is getting bad.
im so sad. i cnnot go out, i cnnot go fr wk.
ohh. damn sad.
bt i told yana&bf to make sure just bring me out if im bored. haha!
aunts&friends has been visiting me.
some are shocked&some are just laughing.
haha. i noe its funny tt i cn involve in an accident.
haha. wat to do.. da nk terjadi.
cast going to be on my hand fr th rest of th 28 days. shit seh.
CHEH! boring btl!

cn anyone bring me out tdy pretty pls!
im so bored! haiya.
okay la. i think i'll just update some other time.
see ya! i miss my ITE friends&dancemates.
even my other friends...
&someone tt ive been missing since broke up.
SHH! dont let my bf noe!haha!

ok. bye!

LOVED!

2009-07-14T18:46:00.002+08:00

im sorry fr not updating.

ive started my new job at SGH so its kinda diff fr me to update tt much.

busy w wk&friends.

so long though.

haha.

told ya im rebonding my hair rite?

nd yes i did. & my hair's short. look at th pic la k.

you cn see it. haha.

omg! its so hard for me to type with only 1 hand.

nt to be kecoh bt since my friends got to noe from ph ppl itself thn i rather tell cox everyone who hav been visiting me has been scolding me didnt inform them earlier. haha.

okay so. i met with an accident on saturday nite ok.

i fracture my hand&so many abrations on my rite leg&hand tt i hardly walk.

nothing serious ok ppl.

thanks to ppl who stayed up at th hosp till 630 am & to those who hav been visiting me. thanks alot.((:

most impt thing is!!!

i got a 4 days mc! hahaa. but tk cukup ah!

my hand da mcm ape sey. nk keje confirm ssh.

haiyo..

oh ya.. sorry fr th late wish.

happy belated 26th bday.

i did msg u.. but i do not noe if u receive it.

thats all la k. im bored la!! i wanna go out pls!!

i dont wanna stay hm pls! haha.

i miss work walau mcm mne. hahaaha.

I MISS YOU PANTAT!

LOVED!

2009-07-02T01:27:00.002+08:00

whatever.

if u r reading this.
happy supposed to be. (:

its damn boring!
nothing to do.
currently at home.
all my mind can think of is sleep but my eyes just couldnt fall asleep.
fuck sey.
im off on thurs&fri.
anyone wants to bring me to movie to watch transformers????
hahahah.
if we were still together , i would already asked u seh.
hahah. merepek ah eqa.
jgn start kau nyr merepek bole??
hahaha. sorry peeps!
yay! im rebonding my hair next week!
look out for the new me! hehehe.
i want to go shopping!
i want to buy a dress from fox!
they're having sales&its damn gorgeous!
omg! fucking gorgeous can?
haiz.. klu lah aku byk duit. cheh!

ahhh. im running out of words.
i better get off from here&try to sleep.
BORING LAH! spe nak ajak aku klua????
heheheh. dah lah. nites&ya..
happy schooling to those started school! ((:

LOVED!

2009-06-30T22:53:00.003+08:00

today&2 more days is suppose to be a special day.

but all ended real2 soon.

i miss him alot. real lot.

&im just really hurt.

even im smiling but deep in me, im crying&more than that.

so, i just got nothing to say.

congrats&hope you will be happy.

im happy when u r.

i need some happy moments please(:

&ya ive got a full time job.

im starting working there might be next week.

im waiting for the schedule to be issued out.

so, fr everyone's info i got a job at SGH.

wah. eqa jadi kakak2 nurse.

ape cakap?

hahaha.

so im happy.

&im sorry to managers at PH.

i might be quiting soon.

heheheh.

thanks for the encouragement to all who gives me support.

im happy& thanks.

ya2. i forgot to tell this story.

basically its nothing but that friday, its planned was lepak/chill.

in the end we went drinking.

&thanks eh. hahaha

BTW!!!!

aku ngn die tkda apape!

he was just helping!

aku tkkn secepat mungkin dpt pengganti.

terime kasih kerane memahami.(:

&today i woke up real early to go to jurong division HQ

it was huge! &i got lost!

hahaha.

the receptionist there is so cute&handsome!

hahahah. random!

got back home&went out again.

btw people..

ive changed my number again!

due to ive bought a new line. nomore prepaid!

so im really sorry&please call my home to get my new num to those whom ive not yet called.

as my contacts are all lost

but ive not use it lah.

im finishing my prepaid first den i will use the new one.

but for earlier notice i tell u people so that if 1 day u guys were to call me&couldnt get thru it means ive changed my num.

so thanks&do call my home to get my num aite.

thanks! (:

LOVED!

2009-06-28T00:51:00.002+08:00

we've broken up.
i dont have anything to say anymore.

potpetpotpetpotpet.
she wasnt this noisy in the morning.
but she suddenly blast out just now.
because i scolded kakak.
fuck you lah.
im fucking angry.
i hate everything! cibai!

2009-06-23T19:26:00.002+08:00

my computer was down since the last update.
im sorry for not updating.

at last ive got a call from one of the many jobs i applied for.
i went for the interview last friday&i might be posted to either TTSH or SGH.
im gonna go thru a 3 month training&then a 1 yr contract.
im okay with it at least i got a full time job that can cover for my daily expenses,start schooling again&parents.
so im soooo happy. hehe

okay.
so im currently having an "onthrock"position with my boyfriend.
he's getting irritated with my attitude.
&he says im getting on his nerves?
might be. im sorry okay?
but im angry because you just dont have the time for your own girlfriend!
but you have soo much time for your friend!
how am i not angry with u.
but im really sorry for my attitude, my stubborn-NESS&everything.
i noe ive been making you angry.
but i promise i'll change.
all i wanted as a gf is tt treat me as one pls.
im your gf. not yr fren.
i'll change.
i love you.
alot!~

LOVED

2009-06-15T00:36:00.003+08:00

the genting trip

the skakiesmekia
the ITE friends
the azpirasi dancers

i miss each&everyone.

the fun times we had together.

the laughters&all.

it was really something that i miss to do.

&it was never expected that i lost contact to most of them.

friends that i have not seen so long.

&friends that we've not close anymore.

i miss you guys.

really.

i just got home from work.

boyfriend is busy at home.

he got something important to do.

so i'll only call him later.

ive got nothing to do&so i decided to update something about people's up there.

*the genting trip

it was my memorable trip with my special ones.

it will never forgotten.

the fun trip we had there was awesome.

&i miss that happiness.

it ended so fast.

*the skakiesmekia

my lovely cliques.

my heart&soul cliques.

whom have been going thru thick&thin with each other during each&everyones hard time.

2 years of friendship& we go our separate waes due to new school.

but deep down we are still caring&loving each other.

we are just waiting for the rite time for the whole lot of us to have free time for our reunion.

I MISS YOU

*the ITE friends

new clans i had in ITE life.

friends that was sweet &sour sometimes.

we argued. but was okay in a while.

hated each other but ended up loving each other.

days were spent mostly with them.

hard to say but it was all for a while.

course ended so do us.

&really i miss you guys.

*the azpirasi dancers.

i so miss dancing.

&i so miss the people there.

dancing for shows.

kecohs during training.

kecohs on the day of shows.

had dinner together.
helping each other.

&many more.

simply i just love the people in azpirasi.

its been so long that i went for training.

&i miss dancing with them

i will come back soon.

i miss everyone there((:

SIMPLY.

i miss my friends. ALOT!

done&gone

LOVED!

2009-06-12T00:48:00.002+08:00

cruel?
useless?
heartless?

words that have been given to me all this while.
am i that bad?

shud i change for the better?
i might have hurt him too deeply.
but how he treat me was truely hurting me too deep too.
why must it be this hard?
why must all my relationship be this way?
why am i to ego?
where shud i throw this ego away?
he wants me to be better.
how?
this is what i am.
i cant change.
i love you, if you do love me you can be there for me to help me.
but ure not.
whereas you scolded me.
im sorry love.

i have to say this.
for the fact , i do still love farhan.
im sorry to everyone that do not like what im saying.
but, even though ive move on but my heart cant change that fast.
just give me time will you?

LOVE,
help me please?
ure just the one i need now for me to change.
im holding on to you.

please prettypretty please.
im begging you.

work was fine today.
it was a dream team like wat muz says.
the kitchen staff was me, yana & yan.
what a really dream team. haha.
it was not that busy today.
i did cut with yana beside to me doing aux.
kecohnyr yana hari ini. haha.
yan tk abes2 ngn "seluar dalam besar" die mengutuk aku.
kuangasam tol. haha.
i ended work at 10 today.
went home straight at 10 to talk to boyfriend.
nd here i am blogging.
okay bye!

nothing to talk. hahha
nites! (:

LOVED!

2009-06-05T17:54:00.000+08:00

boredness. ive applied so many jobs since morning. insyaallah can get any one of the applied jobs ive made. wah eqa dah pandai buat resume yang betul. hahah. amazing siol. no foods at home. hungry plus angry. boyfriend called after finishing work but telling me theres this one girl ask for his name. cheh! i cannot be jealous meh? haiya. never mind. as long as his not going to look for another gf sudah lah. tk cukup i ker? hahah.
i need to say something. but im just not in the mood coz im hungry and its not that important tho. okay nevermind lah. i got to go. tired ready. ohh.. btw, ive not yet showered, my home is in a mess. i called mummy saying that selagi no food at home for me to eat, selagi tu i wont do any chores at home. but ive done vaccumming&mopping uhs. the messed things are from the bertimbun baju2 yang da lipat belom simpan. heh! later lor. okay bye!

*i love you tau tak giler! HEHEHEH

LOVED!

2009-06-04T14:28:00.002+08:00

my stomach is aching since morning.

i dont noe wat happened.

&today i woke up pretty early.

which is at 1130 &ive been watching tv since then.

wow. it was so amazing. hahah.

having new life with someone new is really hard.

im still with my usual attitude.

which makes someone irritated.

&i dont noe how to change when that particular someone wants me to change.

i noe ure not use to it but pretty please give me a chance&time for me change.

prettyprettyplease.

i love you alright?

i really do(:

wanted to go rebonding tomorrow.

but see if i get my pay ready lah.

my hair really sucks.

with all those frizzy stupid curls coming out hair.

heh. stupid sey.

party-ING day with eliyana this sunday.

hop on great moments with bestie once in a lifetime.

i love you sweetheart(:

check out pichas real soon when i went to malacca& whatever pichas that r supposed to be uploaded aite.

got to go. my drama start ready!

bye!

LOVED

2009-06-03T07:34:00.003+08:00

PEOPLE!

GET THIS CLEAR!
I'VE BROKEN UP WITH FARHAN!
ITS OFFICIALLY!

stop asking me about him and so watever shit.
im happy with my new relationship and please dont remind me a thing about farhan!

remember this please pretty please!
me&farhan are through k?!
for once people, trust me that im through with him.
i noe its hard for people to trust me on that.
but really. ive broken up with farhan.
thanks!

boyfriend called me as early as 7 to tell me he's on his way to work.
and i cant sleep again.
since my comp is not off yet so i decided to update my blog again.
and im updating my blog to let FARHAN noe that im happy with my new relationship!
&jangan perasan yang aku tulis pasal kau!
okay BYE!

&if anyone not happy with my updates and reading my blog
just get lost
thanks

&i forgot to update something.
now then i remembered.
ELIYANA ; im sorry about that day.
really sorry.
i love you(:

boredom!

LOVED

2009-06-02T22:29:00.002+08:00

its not and will never get better.
its hard for me to start new.
but im trying my best.
im trying my best to change.
im trying my best to give my love to him.

i hardly gets wat i want.
with this relationship im getting back wat i didnt get before.
im proud and happy to be here again.
*in a relationship*

ya. nothing can be done.
applying jobs with no responds.
im sick and tired of it.
might as well i just get out of this hse and look for job by my own.
haiz.

get a life , find something new.
follow both yr heart and mind. *thank you alot(:

LOVED

2009-05-28T16:35:00.002+08:00

life's getting ridiculous.

how can barcelona win btw??
cheh! cannot lah.

thanks for making bestfriends fight and hate each other.
you're just one fucking shit!
i hate you!
for once, we're through and yess im happy without you!
fuck you.

aku taknak balas2.
tapi ingat aku takkan diam diri.
you should noe what i mean farhan.
let the game begin!
haha.

nothing can be done at home. too bored ready.
wanna go out, no money.
wanna lepak, friends working.
wanna sleep, tdy dah bgn kul 0230.
haha. i think its better if i just do nothing lah.
hehe. wanna look for job pon tk gune. CHEH!

oh ya.
i wanna kill someone. to make sure he dies infront of my face,
den im gonna be the happiest person in the world.
nothing to update more lah.
just accept it that ure one fucking sweettalker.
BULLSHIT!

LOVED; R-M-F(i dont y)

2009-05-27T20:43:00.002+08:00

i trusted you but everything was just unexpected.
how could you?
i love you truthfully but all this happen.
you my dearest friend, but what is this?
you were different infront of me but different by the back of me.

IM TOO DISAPPOINTED AND UPSET TO TALK!

ytd me and yazid went to watch movie at vivo.
he fetched me at bb after i went to meet my cousin to pass money.
he waited for me at macdonalds traffic light.
the funny thing is that.
when i wanted to naek his motor, i usually naek motor from the right.
but then theres so many cars so i boarded from the left.
hahah. nd kite dah nak jatoh.
it wobbles and we laugh out loud ah.
malu siol.
hahah. so we watched "the uninvited" .
it wasnt that scary but its suspends was like what the hell sak.
bole dikatekn aku sorang je yg terpekik terlolong kat dlm hall tuu.
hahah.samapi yazid malu nak layan aku. haha
ohh ya!
before the movie started we had ben&jerry.
sedap tpy chocolate die masyaallah.
tersekat kt tekak.
haha.
after that teros balek lah.
went to pH.
something shit happened.
i lazy to say.
let only the people's there noe.
then daripade plan nk gi mkn teros balek. aku tkda mood pyr psl.
aku kat rmh kelaparan. sial btol.
hahah.
okay im done lah.
will update again.
bye!

LOVED ; R-M-F
*021008

2009-05-22T19:53:00.002+08:00

my life is nothing rite now. nothing without him.

i do love you dearly
but i think its really time for me to go.
i dont need you in my life anymore.
sooner or later its really gonna be the end.
how hard it is for me to let go of you, i think its the best.

if you really love me, you wouldnt do all that to me.
im sorry.
i do love you but i dont need this anymore.
leave me alone and i will find my way to start getting back to my own self
after reading this, pls do not look for me.
if you wanna think otherwise, do as u wish.
but im not like wat u think.
im not you my dear.
im hurt too deeply.
i cant bear to lose you. but i cant bear to get treated this way and hurt anymore.
im sorry sweetheart. but i have to go.
i noe you wont change for me.
I LOVE YOU ALOT.
how i wish i could really be the one thats in her place.

IM SORRY, GOODBYE (im crying)
i noe u noe i love you.
but we cant continue this rite?

eqa SAAAYAANG an.
tpy ini semua harus berakhir.
selamat tinggal.

*im forever your princess sweetheart!
my heart wont change.
i will only love you.
i promise.
if we are destined to be together, we will meet again.
I LOVE YOU ALOT.

im still in love with R-M-F
*021008

2009-05-14T18:22:00.002+08:00

hey
im currently at cuzzies hse.
nothing to do rite now.
i was at her home since yesterday.
i came down to woodlands intention was not to come to her hse.
but since something cropped up, i ended up staying over at her place.
so we talked, shared everything and even watched my favourite movie at youtube.
we laughed and had our early early breakfast which is nasi goreng with ayam at 0400 am.
how early was our breakfast??
haha.ended up feeling sleepy so both of us went to room but we ended up talking again.
0500 am kakak fell asleep when i cant as you noe why.
i cant slp until someone calls me.
so only at 5 that someone called me.
tgh bbl, die tetdo.
i got angry so we ended up hanging up the phone and fall asleep.
da mrh2. aku tdo je. da dgr suare kire okay lah tu. hahah.
okay lah. nothing more to say. i will be leaving kakaks hse at 9 maybe.
will update again soon.
oh yaa. i got an interview tomorrow! wish me luck! thanks!((:

BYE!

LOVED ; R-M-F

We Are Just Not Meant To Be Together

2009-05-13T01:57:00.002+08:00

*kau janjikan bahagia , namun kau hantui degan gurauan berbisa*

im just hurt , upset and sad.
am i too stupid that everyone can treat me this way?
i have feelings dear.
if you think by this you can be happy , then fine.

to end this here. lets do it.

i got nothing more to say.

WE ARE JUST NOT MEANT FOR EACH OTHER.

nothing can change the fact that you're meant for her but not me.
my life might not be filled with happiness but if you think this way makes me&you happy then we do it.
you made me make this decision.
you make me feel stupid.
you make me feel like im nothing for you.
whereas you promised happiness for the both of us.
how could you?
huh?!
we just dont need each other anymore.
how hard i try to save this relationship , we will never will.
cox YOU make it this way.
how hard i tell you i love you , you never trust me.
then its better for me to love you silently.
then, you can be happy.

if you do love me, den do as i say to you all this while.
if you cant, then we really are not meant to be together.
im just wasting my time loving someone that doesnt love me truely.

you just hurt me too deeply.
im hurt really hurt.
how could you?!

now, my heart really is broken to pieces!
hard to say.

but , I DO LOVE YOU.

it will never happen. NEVER.
cox you are just playing with it.
you dont love me but you r just saying it to make me feel happy.
i cant talk anymore.
im too hurt and im crying.
GOD bless you sweetheart!

*im forever you princess sweetheart!
really wont change.

LOVED ; R-M-F

2009-05-08T04:46:00.004+08:00

its almost 5 in the morning and i cant sleep.
it questions me why am i still up and where are you.
im waiting from just now and theres no news.
im sleepy but everytime im on my bed, my eyes wont shut.
my minds playing around about you.

im waiting and still waiting.
since i cant sleep then i'll do some talks here.

i met yana around 4 just now down at yew tee.
i went for my hair treatment and then down for breakfast cum lunch with yana.
and den she ended up at my house lepak with ayu.
lepak tk buat ape2 till 930?
hmm. and then they went off.
furniture coming in and out from this hse.
it irritates me alot.
where mummy is quarelling with daddy.
and im not in the mood with kakak.
but in the end, she blanje me macdonalds just now.
she met her friend and i ordered her to buy me food cos i was hungry.
and yes she came home with a meal of mcWings.
thanks alot. how much i love you kakak.(:

i mati2 want to watch ezora till end.
but youtube's episode of that drama is only till like 54.
haiya.
but im trying my best to watch it.
i cant continue watching it with my mind not at ease now.
might as well i just lie on my bed to make myself fell asleep.

so den i have to go.

*LIFE HAS TO GO ON*
*AND I DO STILL LOVE YOU*

i want to sleep!
GOODBYE!

LOVED ; R-M-F

2009-05-05T17:14:00.003+08:00

hello(:

im not working today.
and its like my finally off day since 5 days straight of working.
its damn tired ah. haiya.
my backbone , my legs are all aching.
tmr, working again.
okay so.
i have something to talk about.

yesterday the crews working was yan , me and yazid.
and during yan missing in action , me and yazid had some talks.
he was talking about his love life with this one particular girl.
he really loves this girl but for almost 1 yr of relationship , they broke off because of this girl made some problems.
after 6 years , they got back together.
and less than a yr they broke up again with the same mistakes from this girl.
so he had to let her go. with his heart broken too deep.
but , yazid is cool enough to attend her wedding day.
sits infront of the pelamin and saying congrats to her.
but really deep in his heart he was hurt and crying.
and he told me , till now he's still loving her and if she were to be a janda(i dont noe wats in english. sorry)
he will definitely be with her back. because he loves her still.
and he never bear any grudges towards her mistakes or whatever shit she has done to him.

the purpose of me writing this post was because of something that my mind is thinking.
yazid might be just as cool to let his love one gets married infront of him with another guy.
but i dont think so i am.
his a one big stong guy i tell you.
how would i be if it would be me in that state.
(you should noe what im talking about if you were reading this)
i might be still waiting like yazid do.
but i dont think i can see you get married with someone else infront of me.
my mind keep playing this since yesterday after the talks with yazid.
sial lah. i really cant imagine it.
how can yazid be so strong?
might be because of love , he is strong enuf to wait.
i think i must be strong like yazid when the time really comes infront of me.
but i dont think i can change the fact of getting hurt.

sudah lah eqa.
klu ade jodoh , tk kemane.
mcm YOU ckp (:
hehe.

haiya.
im still sleepy.
i slept at 0930 in the morning yesterday and woke up at 0200 in the afternoon just because i was working.
and yesterday after work i slept at 0200 in the morning as usual and i woke up at 0200 in the afternoon today but i am still sleepy.
i have not had enuf sleep.
i need to sleep!
haiya. but im waiting for something!
heheheehhehe.

got to go lah. kemas rmh jap rase2 nyr.
dah ngantok giler babi , tido lah.
hehs.
okay!

LOVED ; R-M-F

GOODBYE!

2009-05-03T01:26:00.002+08:00

Nur Eliyana Bte Muhd Tahir

pretty aint she?(:
we started as strangers.
and soon we became close.
and she has been the one that i consider so close to me at work that i share everything with her.
there's a purpose of me posting about her. ; here it goes.
yana, i might not be the greatest friend ever.
i might not be the one who've always been there for you.
i might not have been cared for you.
i might not have been understand you feelings.
and i might not be the special one in your life.
but truth is i never stop loving you as my dearest ones.
as you've been the one supporting me from behind thru thick and thin.
i've lost two bestfriend before and because i've treated you like a bestfriend, i am praying hard not to lose you.
it may sound so whatever to you.
but this is really from my heart.
i might have scolded you for no reasons.
i might have hated you for a stupid reason.
but i never see the best things that u have done for me.
you never forget me even the singlest thing.
you have been there for me all this while.
you have been the one who listens to my stupid crap story every single day.
each time i meet you, there's always something i wanna share with you cos you never say no to listen.
*kaulah segalanya* - that has been the phrase she used for me 2 yrs back. hahah.
the best thing that i never see in you this past 2 years ive noen you ;
you have been really there for me.
the sweetest thing that i ever had from you was my birthday. and ;
you never forgets me even a second.
i dont noe what would happened to me if we were to fight really badly. and ;
if i ever lose you , im really the most stupid person in this world.
*praying really hard not to lose you*
and ohh ya.
her birthday is coming.. what should i buy for her??? hmmm.. hehehe
might be my turn to surprise her?
lastly ; i love you friend . BESTFRIEND to be exact.

Raden Muhd Farhan Bin Abdul Kadir.

we started off not noeing each other.
we dont even talk.
i dont even noe him and he dont even noe me.
easiest way to say, i never even looked at him lah. heheh.
and when we started to became close?
i just dont noe.
it all came in a sudden.
where we started to hang out around together.
going to movies. hmm. mostly everything.
and not soon enuf, we ended up falling for each other.
and i ended up as his girlfriend.
being his girlfriend was the greatest moments.
and he was really the greatest boyfriend.
he never neglects me and ;
ahh senang , he treats me more like a princess. an angel or more maybe.
i never had a boyfriend like him.
i really love him too deeply.
the times spent with him for 2 months was really great.
i never get treated that way.
memories will be just memories that i will keep in my heart.
as , our relationship doesnt last long.
we broke up in the midst of our greatest time.
it was all because of my mistakes.
if it didnt happen, we might still be together right now this second. *tears drop*
farhan , i might not be the greatest girlfriend.
i might not be the everything you want from a girlfriend.
but im happy to be your girlfriend. really happy.
and to be your girlfriend, it was really my dream.
being your girlfriend was like a dream that came from heaven.
i really never regret to being your girlfriend.
he might already happy with someone else right now.
i can just miss him from far.
how i really wish it didnt end.
so much to share. it might not fit to this one post. so maybe next time.
but lastly ; farhan , i really never regret in noeing you and i really wish that i could turn back time.
im sorry that it ended badly.
forgive me. ohh shit. im crying. haha. okay.
ending this with just one.
i noe you are happy with someone. but i just miss you.
really missing you. and might be the last time i said this since long?
I LOVE YOU ; still.

Nur Afiqah Bte Abdul Razak

this girl here is the one writing everything down since just now.
only god noes how and what she is rite now.
there's nothing much to say about her.
she is just her.
and she is still waiting and waiting.
(someone noes about this)
and its YOU.

to end this post , im telling everyone.
do not neglect anyone whom you love.
treasure them rite now this second.
because you might not noe you might be losing them in just a blink of an eye.
ive lost someone important in my life in just 2 months and i regret it.
and im really treasuring my friendship with my bestfriend up there. not to just lose her in a blink of an eye.
remember, life might be short but yr love ones have to be kept in you forever.
and im doing it right now.
till this second , yes im still loving farhan.
but it will never like before.
i miss you and i love you.

*you're the greatest girlfriend i ever had and i love you*
(i'll keep this line forever in me.)

*im always your princess sweetheart(:

*tears drop*
GOODBYE (:

2009-05-01T02:24:00.002+08:00

i might be seen laughing, smiling and having fun.
but no one noes wats deep inside my heart.
how i go thru this all along.
no one understands me.
no one knows me too deep.
everything was just outside.
wats about inside?
have anyone think about me?
no one.
prove to me if anyone would noe me that much.

i cant sleep and im just thinking about my life.
why must life be so unfair.
why cant life just give me chance?
i hate it.

im so heartless rite now.
god damn it.
*UPSET*

LOVED ; R-M-F

2009-04-27T14:28:00.003+08:00

ayah's present (:

NENEKKU((:

MUMMY!<3> and most importantly , me(:

and so on saturday , the whole family went out for dinner cum ayah's celebration.

we went to east coast.

woah , we ate alot.

from cockles to ikan bakar to satay to chickens ahh. in short. many lah.

hahah.

i was having a bad stomach cramp and it was really taking my mood away on that day.

i almost cried during dinner and even in the car.

it was damn bad cramp.

drank peach tea , daddy bought me hot tea cause it was damn bad.

and at last i drank mineral water cox its the best to cool me down.

i wasnt in the best mood lah senang kate.

da perot saket. mcm2 terjadi.

mummy skjp nak mkn seoul garden skjp nk mkn satay.

mcm ape kn? so we had all the way in the car gadoh psl mane nk mkn. ape lah.

at last east coast jgk.

after dinner whole fam jln2 at the beach.

wah mcm very romantic tpy dgn family. ahahah.

klakar. after all that planned to go mustafa centre.

for what? im not sure.

but in the end it was pack when we reached there and daddy have to work in the night.

and so we went home.

what a boring birthday thingy.

me and kakak boring2 merajok psl klua dgn fam kate nk jln2 at last balek.

mcm ape sey.

both of us kept quiet in the car and fell asleep. haiya.

reached home around 12.

boring kn tuu??

before reaching yew tee ibu actually said to ayah "ape kate kite pegi johor. dah lame tk pegi johor mlm2 dgn family".

ayah den said "awak nie da tau abg bwk taxi mlm nie bru nk ckp. balek sdh lah"

when ibu said that me and kakak actually were smiling.

when ayah said "balek sdh lah", we both went to sleep again.

hahaha. so kesimpulan bahasenyr, klu klua ngn family , prepare to sleep in the car the whole trip. hahaha. BORING tau.

dah lah aku saket , boring. ishk!

never mind. in the end to me it was a great family bonding. mase jln2 pt beach to. hahah

so long that we didnt had this family thingy.

so i had fun walking and chit-chatting with my fam.

and i had the boring part where my stomach cramp and nowhere to go after that.

hmpf!

annnddd. yesterday i work.

bad thing happened before work and during work.

before ; dont need to noe lah. personal.

during ; also dont need lah. those who was working understand.

tak fair! yana dpt balek siang. hahaha.

because she schooling today.

so the crews have to stay with the managers and riders to scrub.

crew was me and yan. yang tk pernah buat scrub.

hahah. in the end , i helped the riders oil pan but scrub they do.

after scrubing, i had to transfer stock into container which mai told me last min.

change MRD and much.

counter. oven barrier.

expired items. haiya. byk...

and i ended at 0145 like tt lah. waited for mai.

helped mai with her closing.

oooh. i wrote a note in the notebook.

perasan jadi secretary skjp pegi balek kt due2 manager tnyr what else to write to inform umi.

hahahahaha. cool. (sorry ah. aku rase cool je. klu sesape mcm rase mepek, tu krg nyr psl)

and so. i went home at 2 when mai finishes.

i went home first. the rest was still there.

i took the taxi home. mabok ah dlm taxi.

mcm sial. spi rmh mandi tido!

and aku nari nk bgn pon mls2. hahhaha

dah la. im here pon.

so nothing else to write.

im going off den. BYE!

not working tdy but tomorrow!

see you soon! ((:

ooops! terpecah lobang. shhit! kakak noe something! hheheheh. sorry!((:

LOVED ; R-M-F

2009-04-25T15:43:00.002+08:00

*HURT*
*UPSET*
*CRYING*

im too hurt to say anything.
what so good about that someone that i dont noe??

damn it!

2009-04-24T15:41:00.003+08:00

i miss the people who have been there for me all this while.
the one who have cared fr me in and out.
the one who treasured me alot.
now ; all that has been destroyed.
what happened?
dont ask me.

these few days a friend of mine has been treating real bad.
bad not as in the bad way.
its as in , no more care
no more kasih sayang.
what happened?
to a friend of mine , tell me if you've started hated me.
you seemed to be running away from me.
im not sure what really happened between us.
no more msgs from you every morning.
no more calling me to check on me.
no more calling to say "hey i miss you"
what happened to this friend of mine?

if any one of you find this particular person could you PLEASE tell this friend of mine that i miss him alot.
he has been really avoiding me.
i dont want to lose another one.
i really dont wanna lose this friend of mine.
he's to precious to me.
PRETTY PLEASE!
i need him!

*come back will you? i miss you alot. why are you avoiding me?*

*im here waiting for you the rest of my life. without you theres nothing that can lead me to the front. without you theres no star that shines in me tellying me that im the only one and you'll only love me.*
*look at the stars if you miss me. i miss spending time with you laughing and wanting to look at the stars everynite we meet. without you theres no one calling me an angel in his life. you're the only one that has been really gave me everything. you're the one who have been really loving me thru out this 6th month. in one weeks time its the 7th. without you , my life is priceless and i have no one other than you in my life. i love you and will forever do. you're too precious in me. i need you the whole life. pls dont leave me. I LOVE YOU.*
-if you read this , please do not be angry. i just miss you alot. it was only meant for you to read.

♥LOVED ; R-M-F

2009-04-23T13:34:00.002+08:00

had nothing better to do.

woke up quite late today.

slept very late ytd.

today ; daddy's birthday.

yesterday ; me and sis went out to vivo and looked for his presents

it was a difficult one to look for his present.

u noe how cerewet my sister is and my father is.

so we had to ; "kakak colour nie nanti ayah npk tue lah"

"eqa , nie okay tak?" ; "confirm eh beli wallet nie?"

but in the end of those conversation ; "ahhhh, kite jln crik bende lain dlu uh. klu tk confirm beli yg ini"

you see?? haiz.. my sister is very cerewet. da dpt sdh lah.

tpy my dad is also a one big cerewet. if this colour is not nice , he doesnt want it.

haiz... like father like daughter lah. but im not like that cerewet eh.

haiyak! hahaha.

so in the end ; we bought him a crocodile shirt and a crocodile wallet.

which everything cost us $150.

fuuyoo. kaki aku naik jelly sak nak bayar.

nasib share2.

hahaha. so then we went to collect our cake which we ordered it soon as we reached vivo.

we collect it and then we went off to harbourfront food centre or whatever to had our LLAATTEE dinner.

jln2 lapar pon lupe. ape lah.

we had chicken chop.

den kakak had chat with me about "orang yg tk tau sape namenyr" -thats what kakak label him as. she just dont want say his name. hahaha

for the whole conversation ; thats the phrase she will call him. hahah.

funny lah. after all, off we go home.

reached home 11.55 / 12 like that.

had to wait for abg lah. haiya. leceh sey.

den hairi woke ayah up but he mengamok tk nk bgn. hahaha.

but we went into the room sing him a bdae song and he woke up with his eyes half opened.

hahaah. klakar..

after all that ; kakak went out again.

she went to doubleO or livingroom.

which i dont noe what the hell is livingroom.

hahah. and there was me at home((:

merajok sendiri , atlast happy sendiri.

lps tuuu, TIDO! hahahha

okay lah.

gtg!

need the toilet urgently. heh!

bye!

LOVED; R-M-F!

2009-04-21T16:43:00.002+08:00

it was nothing more than that.
im restless and bored at home.
in two days time its daddy's birthday.
got nothing to buy for him.
nothing in mind. hmmm.
looked for jobs by the newpaper.
called two. had to send resume over.
so nanti2 aje lah.
hehehe.

okay there's nothing about the above pic kay.
it was just a matter of boredness. and was browsing thru photos.
upload aje yang mane2 aku dpt. hehe
okay lah. gtg.
bye.

LOVED; r-m-f

2009-04-17T19:33:00.003+08:00

two days ago , i woke up from bed and i vomitted alot.
i mean it ; alot.
haiya. i thot it was nothing so just had rests and whatever.
but i get worse in the end.
daddy brought me out of bed and went to the clinic.
my bodyaches were terrible then usual.
vommited too many times.
crying like hell.
i just couldnt walk like normal people.
daddy managed to bring me all the way to the clinic.
thanks daddy.

check-ups were done and i was told that i got stomach flu.
what the hell was that i definitely not noe.
3 medicine. PILLS! which i dont take them.
were forced by mummy. managed to swallow 2 but not the rest. 2 PILLS at one go.
urghh. puh-LEASE! for that one whole day i didnt even touch something to eat.
the nect day woke up very hungry but my head was still spinning.
so i slept till late. woke up and had nasi lemak. hahhaha.
mummy bought for me..
I AM NOT SUPPOSE TO TAKE MILK AND OILY FOOD!
damn it. lousy sey eqa!
dah cannot eat ayam already. hahah.
okay lah. so had M.C and so tak pergi kerje semlm.
hahahaha.
i need a rest lah.
im getting better. but my head is still spinning abit.

ONE secret! : i managed to stop smoking for 2 days. hahaha.
tadi ye ye lah . dah isap rokok dlm toilet. klua mabok!
hahahah. bodoh pyr org! hahahahah
gtg lah. see you again! bye!

LOVED!

2009-04-11T16:54:00.000+08:00

SORRY ; it wasnt meant to be.

JEALOUSY! urghhhh. i hate this.

IM SORRY

2009-04-09T18:11:00.002+08:00

everything was just as expected.
NOTHING to say but

*UPSET*

2009-04-09T14:16:00.002+08:00

pichas from yesterdays SYF.

there's more to come. will ask from neng.

i love my girls yesterday.

my long never seen DEAREST ; ESME - MURNI & EFA .

if only suzy was there, ESME would be complete.

im gonna miss them so much.

till when will we get to see each other again.

hehe. okay lah. i'll upload more pichas when i receive them

BYE.

*love me through . my heart will be forever yours LOVE*

LOVED!

2009-04-08T18:47:00.003+08:00

woke up as early as 530 tdy to go and support ex school ; dunearn in SYF.
met ira. waited fr the rest mcm setengah mati. haha. at last drg spi juge.
missed them so much. was happy to meet them.
reach dunearn and everyone were getting ready.
their costumes were great. (time aku dlu tk plk selawa gini) - aku yg ckp. hahahah
after all , the bus went off from school at 9.
reached UCC and we had to wait till the doors open for the supporters to sit.
after which we were inside , the competition begins.
dunearn was the first to perform.
and they did well!
im proud with my juniors. hahaha.
gd job people.
there was about 8 schools that we watched.
and then it was lunch.
on our way to lunch met cikgu azmi and some azpirasi's.
byk btl soalan cikgu knape da lame tk dtg practice. hehe.
maaf cikgu.
so went to lunch with dunearns.
we got free lunch. hehe.
makan and makan. took pichas and everything.
the S.k.a.k.i and me went off while dunearns stay up to watch othe schools.
hugs and kisses with dearest ; MURNI and EFA
and off.

S.k.a.k.i went to west coast while i took the taxi and went home.
it cost me 10 bucks for just from NUS to CCK. god damn it btol.
klu aku tau naek ape bus dr NUS mmg aku tk waste duit. hahahha.
and so reached home , GOD noes wat happened. i dont wish to talk about anything.
and i fell asleep. just awake. hehehehehe.
will upload the pichas when i get it from nyna and pelik. ((:

im still waiting for yr reply's and calls.
PLEASE you have to trust me.
what you think , is not what happened.
nothing like that happened.
it was all just me all along. ALONE.
CALL ME PLEASE

ohh ya. i got a msg from efa that dunearn got GOLD this year!
CONGRATS dunearn. im happy fr all of you.
haiz. knp lah kite dlu tk dpt GOLD -to ira. hahahahaah (action je)
whatever it is, congrats aite. go DUNEARN! (;

LOVED.

am i or am i not ? STILL?

2009-04-03T19:22:00.003+08:00

who am i now?
am i not the special one like usual?
now , each time i was sulking , sad or whatever ; you just dont care.
meeting up?
thats the other important to us usually.
now ; we dont meet very often!
whats happening to us?
whats wrong with u?

something very upset me you told me ytd.
you shud noe wat.
i cried ; did you noe?
no! coz you dont care any single thing about me now.
not even when im sulking and when im sad!
ure not the usual person that i suppose to noe nd u suppose to treat me as!
u dont treat me as usual!
why? no more love?
i supposed not right?
i thot u do and still do!
whats happening with us?
what? what? what?

TELL ME!!!
im crying since ytd. you just dont noe and you dont care.
arghhhh!!!!!!!

if u do read this ; just to tell u i need an ans.
whats wrong with us and whats happening.
why are you treating me differently.
ans all my question! i need you to!

i love you and i thot you do.
dont stop loving me.
i thot u wont!
knape????
sayang ; tell me why are u treating me differently!
i miss my old YOU!
please pretty please!
come back will you.
*crying*

2009-04-02T13:10:00.003+08:00

it's supposed to be our day today.
our BIG day.
but he have plans today.

dont wanna say too much.
in other words ; im UPSET.

but thanks for the PRESENT on our BIG day.
thanks alot dear.
I LOVE YOU ; alot!

* don't leave me because i can't bear to lose you ; don't stop loving me because i can't stop loving you *

in other words ...
i need you and i love you. ((:
thanks for the wishes , and presents sayang.
LOVED!

2009-04-01T23:17:00.001+08:00

ONE MORE HOUR!!!

AGAIN HAPPY 6TH MONTH..

GEMBIRE NYR AKU. HAHHHAHAHAHHAAHAH((((:

*BIIG SMIILLE*

2009-04-01T18:10:00.003+08:00

in six hours time its gonna be our 6th MONTH !

to raden muhd farhan , happy 6th month okay ..

I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU

*biig smiille*

thats it. bye! (:

2009-03-17T18:49:00.002+08:00

never once in my life that i didnt get to meet you for five days straight!
urgghhh .. you never miss me ..
im getting sad and ... ah its okay
im bored lah nth to do at home so im blogging.

sleeping might be better.
im hungry like hell
mum didnt cook. shes out with the whole fam
left me and sis at home. haiya
waiting for mum to come back and cook.
weeee.

LOVED((:

BOOOOORRRINNG!!!!!!!!

2009-03-17T15:36:00.002+08:00

grrr. im missing you !!

ey boring lah aku.
look for job just now.
applied two if im not wrong.
ive quited PH.
maybe just helping out this sat nd sun. dont noe lah.
but for sure ytd was my last day.
ive told my manager.
im sorry to managers(:

ey gemok , cpt lah abes keje.
eqa rindu tahu tak.
haiyak! mcm mane nie. heh

im sorry to my dearest girlfriend , YANA
i didnt mean to neglect you ytd at wk
im really sorry
forgive me pls darling
will make it up to you aite.((:

sleepy lah sleepy lah.
woke up VERRY early today. hehehe.
need some sleep maybe now!

okay lah. gtg
update more soon..
verry verry sooon! ((:

LOVED

2009-03-13T15:37:00.006+08:00

sweet kan? aku tau((:

kami(:

at last i found only the both of us photos kay.
more to come. haha.
okay, so look at our pics.

i love him oi!

today's post is just to say that i love him.

im gonna miss him so much!

his last day is this sunday at ph.

and then he've started working at ICA

and its gonna be a very difficult time for me to meet him..

grrrrr!! geram tau tak ...

but sayang you noe wat?

how far we are and how long we dont meet, i noe and u noe im not gonna stop loving you. (:

jadi eqa sayang an okay! ((:

one more thing ;

hahahahaha. lagi tadi aku tgu die call at last die da call!!!!!

happy ape aku ((:

hehe (: never leave me even once again.

cos you noe i do and forever do love you.

dah happy lah dgr suare die da tk tau nk update ape lagi.

hehehe. dah lah i'll update again soon. *biiiig smiille!*

LOVED;

2009-03-07T16:49:00.002+08:00

bored bored bored!
he is busy at work and cant call me. hmpf!
aiya. bored bored bored.
im just sitting lepak-ING at home doing nothing.
friendster is just so boring now.
facebook-ING looking for the sentosa's crews profile.
found many.
and photos of us working were found too.
ohh i miss the people there especially, iraa ; nad ; aisya ; ahhh.. many more lah ..
hmm. the bond we get there was superb.
but sadly we have to leave. its only a part time job tho.

but not to worry, sad psl drg siket je!
hahaha. aku happy oi skrg!
bluekks.
i spent time with someone ytd! hahahaha
i love you alot lah! weeee!
and you noe obviously i love you. ((:
so much to share about him ao much to share how happy i am now with him.
ahhhhh. one day i will share with everyone here! ((:

btw, on the 2nd was our 5th month! hahahahah
forgot to update to you people! :p

so happy2 for me!
loved to everyone!
weeeeeeeeeeee!

((:

2009-03-05T14:23:00.004+08:00

today, im working at 5
so gonna have to get ready fr work in about half an hours time.
im gonna have my lunch first.
mummy cooked ayam lemak cili api!
wow .. sdp ape!
hahahahah.
tk sbr nie nk mkn! wow!

seriously, im really having fun with him.
he has been really really making me laugh.
awww. and ytd, we terigt psl mase kite same2 dlu!
when we were at genting, my birthday outing, the first kiss [ awww ]
awwww sayang, i miss you alot! (:
ahhhh. walau mcm mne u tau i sayang u spi biler2.. hehehehe.
eqa mushy mushy sey..
tpi tkp uhs. blog aku per.
korang tk suker, mcm stacey tu can get lost from my blog.
i dont even noe who u r!
thanks alot eh whoever u r!
okay! i gtg.

I LOVE RADEN MUHD FARHAN((:

2009-03-04T16:27:00.002+08:00

this is my bestfriend , eliyana.
friendship that happened from the same workplace.
which happened we dont quite like each other. its me lah dont noe her.
haha. and now we became bestfriend.
she has been there for me.
help me in eveything i need.
the purpose of this post is to tell everyone i love her.
and our friendship wont just end so fast. (:
i love you eliyana (:
btw, i miss you alot.

this picture here, the purpose is to concentrate on me and an.
as i dont have only the two of us pic in my comp.
all pic are in my phone.
so concentrate on us only kay people. (:
thanks....
you noe, i miss him.
and i love him. (:
he's the one ive been talking bout all this while.. the,
he has been there for me
care for me
treating me like an angel.
like a princess
give me everything.
ahh.. he's the one lah.. hahah.
cute kan die?? aku tau!
hahahahaha.
dah dah.

im posting about the both of them because both of them are important and too special in my life.
i just cant live w/o them. lagi2 si gemok yg 2nd gbr. hahaha. ((:
gurau je .. watever it is to both, i love you alot kay.
just pls dont ever leave me alone.

I LOVE YOU OI! ((:

btw, org2 yg tk tau mane aku dan an...
aku, yg tgh pelok die tuuu. hahahahaa
for everyone info je.. tgk lah kay puas2. ((:

LOVED

2009-03-04T15:26:00.002+08:00

hello(:

im trying my best rite here to look fr a full time job.
ive sent my resume to quite a number of companies.
haiz..
i hope in any time i will get it.
dont tell me im gonna continue working in pH rite.
so just wait and see.

ive been staying hom since ytd.
best jgk oi.
ddk rmh mkn, mkn, mkn. hahahaha.
nothing to do but eat. heh.

ytd an woke me up by calling my phone.
he brought me to breakfast at yew tee.
aww so long since he woke me up just to bring me to breakfast eh.
thanks love((:
so went to mac and had our breakfast cum lunch i think.
den we headed back home.
thanks fr spending time with me even its fr a while.
worth it oi (: aku saayaang!

and today i will be staying hom again.
lepak lah aku kat umah.
hahah. mkn pon best jgk.
i think in any time i will be getting back my last time weight.
asik mkn je mne tak. hahaha.
now, i will just look and look fr job okay!
dari aku ddk rmh mkn tido mkn tido. hahaha
buat keje faedah siket bgs..
crik lah keje.
hahahahahahah.
okay so i gtg. will just update again soon aite.
wish me luck fr my job!! (:

i LOVE an((:
he has been there for me,
care and concern about me,
love me,
treating me like an angel,
treating me like a princess,
give me eveything i want.

I LOVE YOU MY DEAREST((:

2009-03-02T15:29:00.003+08:00

on friday, i came down to ph to meet an.
then faidzil is going back to australia on that sat. so everyone were meeting up to have dinner cum supper with him.
so i was at the store from 9 till closing lah. yana and mai came down around 10 plus.
they had their dinner cum supper of beefsteak? i dont noe how to eat that kay. haha.
so they enjoyed eating and snapping pictures. where soon after, yana and the rest decided to go for drinking.
we went all the way from store to cck park to enjoy drinking.
i didnt get a sip of it. an dont allow me to. hmpf!
everyone was having fun. laugh all the way.
and one thing yana is always the one who wants to go to the toilet! hahaha.
so me and mai have to go all the way to the toilet just to teman her.
psl siput biawak pon kau bole ketawe! tak phm! haha.
okay so soon after ard 4 we went home. an sent me home. (:
on this day he has made me smile all the way. I LOVE YOU TOO!(:

and ytd i went out with yana to JP.
i got my pay so i decided to belanje her.
we went to swensens and ketawe tk tentu psl.
we ate not that much but kite full giler! spi ice cream pon tk abes.
we got photos taken to make mai jealous. hahah
nd yana, jgn lupe crik lagu WESTLIFE utk blog kau! hahahaaha.
after eating which is ard 5 plus, we were suppose to rush to werk.
but my mum called and asked me go home urgently.
so i had to paitao wk and yana.
sorry aite. (:
i sent yana to blk 164 and i straight away went home!
mum was not at home but i have to take care of adik. so thats why mummy ask me go home.
so i was at home all the way.
slept like pig!
eat like pig. walaupon dah mkn swensen aku mkn lagi nie dah spi uma!
hahaahaha.
and then had talks with an. thanks for making me laugh the whole night we talked!
i had fun. thanks alot darling. I LOVE YOU! (:

im having fun with him (:

LOVED

2009-02-26T15:16:00.002+08:00

to all who tagged!

he has been treating me very well all this while.
we've been meeting up at work and all he does was make me laugh and smile.
have you guys ever noe that? huh?!
this is the truth. so dont just say everything that you guys dont noe.

im the only one who noes him and how he treats me well. very well.
so i got nothing more to say. just this.
he has been treating me real well all this while!
die tak pernah treat aku mcm mane krg kate.
seriously korang salah anggap psl die and diri aku sendiri.
tolong jgn jump to conclusion sbrgn. thanks alot.
i need him as a friend pls dont do this to me.
as a friend, he has done so much things for me.
he really has been there for me.
pls pls pls pls im just begging you guys rite now. pls!

2009-02-19T15:19:00.002+08:00

to FARHAN,

thanks for that comment.
i appreciate it alot.
i noe ive done a very big mistake to you.
hate me all you want.
because i noe ive not made things rite.
if leaving me is the best thing that you can think off , im sorry i dont think so.
im gonna make things rite no matter wat.
i noe its too late but never will i give up.
thats wat i noe.
thanks for hating me.
im using you as an attention?
if that wat you think, then so be it.

after all this things that happen, i noe u will never believe in me even the simplest things that ive said.
but wat i noe, you gave me a chance to make it rite.
and tmr is the day im doing everything rite again.
i dont care how it happen, im gonna do it.
i regret everything!
EQA MENYESAL FARHAN!
menyesal!

eqa sayang farhan (:
even if you hate me.

LOVED

2009-02-18T23:26:00.002+08:00

we were not the usual us just because of me and my big mouth.
i regret doing all that.
he's not the usual saying 'i love you' to me since that day.
and we're not the usual "couple" before[ only myself understands what i mean by this ]

if you can give me a chance to prove to you that im changing, and love you even more.
i will really will.
if once i'll break it again, you can leave me behind like u want to.
but i really do love you and i really want us to be back together.
and i really never want you to leave me.
even once, no pls.
give me this chance honey pls.

I LOVE YOU (:

2009-02-12T13:50:00.003+08:00

hi and hello.
to anonymous, im sorry and i dont think i need you lah.
i dont noe you, and who are you to interfere in my love life.
even so he is hurting me like wat you said, its my life that i want to continue loving him.
its my life and i dont think u have the right to interfere.
if yes really yr friend noes me, then who is she?
but whatever it is i just cant take it when YOU wanted to care about my life.
here this second i tell you and everyone here.
SO WHAT IF HE REALLY TREATS ME BADLY?
I LOVE HIM AND THATS GONNA STAY FOREVER.
YOU GUYS DONT NEED TO CARE AND JUST DONT FUCKING INTERFERE!
REMEMBER THIS, EVEN SO I WILL STILL LOVE HIM.
ITS MY LIFE AND YOU GUYS JUST DONT NEED TO NOE.
if you think you are better than him, to me i dont think so.
no one have ever treated me like a princess like he does.
so noone can replace that.
REMEMBER THAT EVERYONE!

here goes eqa. (:
i dont quite have something to share about now.
i just need to share about i dont get to continue to higher nitec.
my application was unsuccessful and tried to appeal.
so i just think have to wait for the results uhs.
if still my results would turns out to be unsuccessful, den i'll have to look for a job for me to continue studies in a years time.
mummy said just try apply again next yr if can.
if not den i might have either to take private o's or stay working all the way.
i wouldnt really want that.
someone special wants me to continue study.
so i'll have to. haha.

2009-02-03T14:02:00.002+08:00

i noe i noe its been again so long that i didnt update.
im sorry. now i think i will have the time to update okay.
my comps okay. (:
hey peeps! its my 4th mth ytd! hahahahaha

"stars you gave,
princess you treat me as.
given a smile,
which shines my life.
never someone treat me like one,
never someone gives me everything.
you brighten my life,
with everything you got.
love that never faded,
today, tomorrow and forever.
kisses that never flies away,
but will stay.
something that will never be forgotten,
but love which conquers two heart were taken."

if you think we would never be back together just because of what you wanted, i think you are wrong.
its just a matter of love and happiness.
if you really dont want me back then say,
dont give some bullshit reasons.
i knew you would never let her go again.
she's just your forever princess ; not me.
the princess that gave you everything ; baby
not me.
happiness were there with you from her all along.
not me ; i knew it.
you might be getting engage ; you might be getting married.
if ever i cant find a new replacement is just because my heart is still with you.
i dont care anymore. whatever you want ; whatever you think you need
find it yourself.

nothing is as perfect as a princess and an angel ;
thats what you always called me. but not this time round.
the perfect princess and an angel is her, nomore me.
i know your life is her's and her life is yours.
we will never happen to be back together.
and thats why i have to find a new replacement.
but it might take me forever.
because i know there's hope for us.
i've never tell you this, but i just cant keep it anymore.
im sorry love ; my heart still needs you.

2009-01-14T18:28:00.002+08:00

holla. sorry for not updating for so long.
its all bullshit. seriously. why cant i just realise that everythinghas ended.
love? bullshit isnt it?
why must be this way if its called love?
bullshit.
love for looks?
pls la. im sorry that i updated about this. i just felt unsafe and im still very jealous.
why cant i just be given a second chance to fell the love by someone that i love most?
is that too diff?
haiz. whatever it is. im here to say i miss you alot.

currently im at jenn's place. with inah. she's dying her hair.so accompany her since im not working.
and so, ive been not working for like 4 days. damn it man.
next week i'll be off from pizza hut for like 9 days.
im having this trial job at sentosa for that 9 days.
so i'll mis ph for that 9 days lah kan. haha.
im not schooling anymore. gotmy results.
not sure in continuing to higher nitec or not. hahs.

to my dearest, bestest bestfriend.
i miss you alot.
where have you been since?
i didnt see yr laughters as well as yr kecohness with me. i miss you alot.
really alot. both of you actually.
where do i get love other than the both of u.
pls pretty pls. i need back that love.

from the bottom of my heart bestfriends, i love you.

i gtg. bye! (:

LOVED

2008-12-24T14:44:00.002+08:00

hi, hello, whatever lah kay.
so right now at jenn's place. doing nothing.
just coming here to meet her, eat fishballs and borrowing her comp.
leaving her home ard 4.
working at 5. haiya.
so, here i am.
so many things have happened in my life this past few days.
cannot tahan with my life ready.
so many things.
im fine with an. but nothing more.
we fought badly that day. very bad.
i noe it wasnt my fault.
really. i noe and i noe.

to everyone, pls understand my feelings.
if you guys still blaming me on the reason we broke up, then dont talk to me.

to YOU, aku tak pernah kcu hidop kau.
klu kau rase aku ssh kan kau, aku mintak maaf.
tpy sorry, aku tak ingin nak mintak maaf ngan kau.
TAKDE MASE!
okay so. bye, i think im done here.

bye.
I MISS YOU SWEETHEART. (:

LOVED;
eQa

thanks jenn for the comp. i love you alot2! muahs. (:

2008-12-10T17:58:00.000+08:00

im bored.
now at izzie's hse. (aishah's cousin)
boring. life getting sucks.
an hates me. thanks.
i knew it. how long u guys must lie to me?
how long must i cry everynight fo u?
ho long more?
tell me.
thanks alot to everyone for not understanding me.
but you guys wants me to understand you. hah!
thanks. bye! gtg. (:

2008-11-28T09:58:00.000+08:00

its bored here. class from 9 and i go home at 10. which is now.
so bye! (:

ily

2008-11-26T12:46:00.003+08:00

how do i say this.
its already the end. thanks for everything.
you just dont under stand how precious u are to me.
u dont seem to see the good side of me.
do u noe how hurt i was when u actually asked me to help u on searching for her?
but i did help. why? because i just dont wanna see my loved one to be stressed over a girl and sad.
its all because i love you.
but you just never see all that. how hurt i am.
u just dont noe this. haiz.
im still hoping. still hoping and still hoping.
thanks dear.

i just dont noe what to blog again. but i miss you. thanks sweetheart. (:

im falling down when u smiled at me.
see the stars when u miss me.
iloveyou heartthrob!

2008-11-20T08:45:00.002+08:00

hi
im here to tell everyone that we broke up
it was the most unbelievable thing that he left me.
its my fault. really
i threw our helmet
he cant take it.
im sorry darling really sorry
ive been crying like two days
i drank on tuesday night with an, fahmy yana ayu ramdan khai and wan
i mabok(they say) i dont noe
but i drank alot maybe. dont noe
i want an back
seriously i need him very badly
my parents getting divorce. (maybe)
i didnt went home after drinking with them.
i slept over at a hotel with an ramdan and ayu cox i was drunk
so they help me out
i threw alot. fahmy scolded me cox i threw at him haha
im sorry. chew called home. she got to noe that i didnt went home.
she told mum about me smoking. cb!
and now, i lost everything. everything that is impt in my life.

i lost an
i lost ibu
i lost ayah.

i miss each and everyone of them there.
however, i love you three from the bottom of my heart.
now and forever do.
I LOVE YOU.

thanks to friends who helped me out.
thanks to aishah. you made my day. you helped me alot
thanks to yana, who took care of me the whole night i drunk and also the next day at yr home. thanks alot. i love i love you.
thanks to an, who took care of me too..thanks alot. i love you alotalot.
thanks to everyone whose at the place when i drunk and took care of me lah kay.
thanks.
andand dorang crite kan aku... aku mabok aku ludah2 kat drg.
den tgh naek motor i , no me an khai and wan almost accident. hehs. coz aku tk tau diam. psl aku dah mabok rbk. haha. sorry sume aku tak bermaksod nak sshkn krg. aku syg krg kay. LOVELOVE. (:

kekek tu kekek. tpy pk2 tk baek. btl2 aku accident, mampos aku. haha
okay. done here.

but i want my an back. he's the greatest boyfriend ever. I LOVE YOU ALOT ALOT. and I MISS YOU TOO.(((:

2008-11-10T12:30:00.002+08:00

first of all, we broke up.
me and an broke up on 9 of november. it wasnt his fault. I THINK.
but then he said it was my fault. and i admit.
i just dont want him to think otherwise.
he likes to say that i dont love him whereas i love zaimy.
zaimy is my past. and i love an the most now.
he's like my everything. and i cant live without him. im just too happy to be his girlfriend.
why he would want to leave me.
you noe, i wasnt sincere in giving back yr necklace.
but you forced me too.
i wasnt sincere in saying i hate you, but you make me to.
i wasnt the one who deleted yr pichas in my phone.
you're just making me feel irritated and i deleted it coz you took my phone.
you really have hated me.
i wasnt sure on yr love towards me.
you still love baby. im hurt. too hurt.

we just came back from our trip to genting.
who's the WE, its me and my dearly boyfriend, yana and mas, ayu and ramdan.
so only the six couple was there. it was great k.
super great! the theme park was superb!
the hotel was definitely great. haha. its only me and an mah.
hahaha. ayu, ramdan mas and yana share one room!
muahahahaha. too bad.
but really overall my trip to genting is seriously great.
tak regret siol aku pegi. hahaha. (:
only one thing that after the two days, i fought with an on our way home to singapore.
it was damn fucking shit kay.
and thats wher we broke up. aiyak.
im crying and sad both.
he was the greatest boyfriend ever.
he actually played this game at the theme park like dont noe how many times just to get the cute lil bear that i wanted. and he actually got one from this game.
everything cost alot.
that so sweet of my boyfriend.
it was the sweetest. he was the only boyfriend that my mum actually trust in bringing me out till early morning and also to overseas which only the two of us in a room.
how ever, i love you alot sweetheart. everyday and forever.

i have to go. im sorry. will update again. LOVED!

2008-11-03T11:45:00.002+08:00

to nur eliyana bte muhd tahir. hee
i miss you too okay girlfriend.
you see, its not because of ive got a new life and i forgot you.
no, as you noe i take my friends as my first priority.
but, i need an right now. you noe why i dont want him to leave me.
you understand why dont you.
but you see, i never forget about you.

the real thing here, im upset to hear that you're happy now with your new clans.
im hurt when you disturbed me at work that tym.
u remembered? "im not the usual eqa who lepaks with you guys till late night"
im not that kind sayang.
its just that you noe my type of person.
god nur eliyana, i love you okay. and i need you right now.
even though we're not that rapat animore, but then my secrets are still yours.
u understand that right?
and i always remember you where ever i go.
oi bacen, kaulah segalanya lah.

and to tell you, im the one felt left out when we usualy together.
and i miss lepaking with only the two of us.
pls nur eliyana, dont forget me. and i wont.
the friendship that we build is the best and will be the best.
i love you and forever do.
we will go pangkeng together this genting okay?
hahaha. aku bole pegi! yay!

ingat nur eliyana, aku ttp sayang kau dunia akhirat aku.
selame-lamenyr.
i love you alotalot. ((:

WOOTS!~

2008-11-03T11:25:00.002+08:00

bitch. who's the real bitch now, BITCH!
fuck. i hate you kay. stop going around showing off that you're the best. FUCKER
ey, i got this line from my friends, friend.
someone who actually thinks you're perfect, is the ugliest in the eyes of someone.

cb! i hate you okay.
girls are girls.
im here to say, i am in times.
but im not the type of bitches that goes around bitching about others.
maybe yes. but i noe, i have the right.
but as for you, its damn fucking irritating giler.

people goes around flirting with someone's boyfriend?
dont you guys think its a good thing to do?
fuck her lah.
go suck your mother ass lah you.
cb!
try to rase if im going ard bossing and msging yr boyfriend. cb!

grrrr.
hey bitch, if you read this im here to tell you, go fuck off lah.
girls are girls. i noe, i am one of them but truly you're too much. bitches! ((:

okay people, i love my boyfriend. (:

WOOTS!~

2008-10-30T13:44:00.002+08:00

ohh this is boring kay.
everytime i can blog is only when im in school.
this is so damn fucking boring.

okay so im now in class.
projects is giving me trouble.
so many things to be finished by next week.
damn ah.
grrrrr.

andand. wow this is great.
im spending my night this saturday with an at his home.
weee. i get to spend time with him. woah.
i love him alot kay.

people!
im attached to a guy named RADEN MUHD FARHAN.
weeee!

WOOTS!~

im done here darlings. ((:

2008-10-23T13:34:00.002+08:00

im in school now. haiyak so boring.
mane matae aku pon aku tak tau. hahah.
we fought that day. till we broke up okay. but den,we're okay now.
hahaha. i love you okay an. im sorry for everything ive done to you. ((:
MUCH LOVES. weeee

btw, im bored.
herm. ive got nth to blog about but here to say i love each and every single of my girlfriends.
MUAHSS!

okay. i think mummy trust an. she doesnt care about my wherebeings if im with him. but sometimes shes abit worried lah. an, you dont be scared lah. she's okay. hahaha.

okay lah okay lah. i love you okay.
muah muacks muaks! ((:

WOOTS!~

2008-10-19T21:38:00.002+08:00

i forgot to blog about sth.

if you're sad, we'll be more sad.
if you cry, i will cry with you.
if you need us, we'll always be here.

to nurul syafiqah bte md noor.
im sorry about the news i heard.

her dad passed away on friday.
i didnt went to school. me and aishah actually planned not to come.
so i slept at home. jenn called me to inform about her.
i cried sraight away after she called.
i cant believe it.
it was like just that i saw her dad that day, and now he's gone.
she's my dearest,cutest, sweetest bestfriend.
we care so much about her.
that day i woke up to visit her.
we cabbed down to her hse.
it was totally damn sad thing.
her face was totally swollen. i cant resist from that.
it makes my heart sore.
the bestest fren actually lost her dad.
we cant stop crying.
we cry for her, because she's like our sister.

her stories about her dad was touching.
who's gonna be there again for her, its now left with herself and her mom.
but i always say this to her. whatever it is, im gonna be here.
not only me. so will the rest of us.

you see nurul, we love you alot.
oh ya. "who will be there when there's cockrach in my room"
thats so sad. you her dad will be always the one that will care for her.
now that her dad is not around, she felt so down.
i really felt sorry for her.

i got no more to say. and i dont noe wat to say.
i will intend to cry thinking about her.
but you see. syafiqah, i will cry for you forever.

here, i am saying pls my dearest friend, be strong.
eqa and the rest will always be here.
for you, i will. no matter wat. (:

syafiqah, you're the loveliest girlfriend. i love you alot.
my heart and soul will always be here for you.
be strong.
ILOVEYOU sweetheart!

your dad will remember you, dont worry.

LOVED

WOOTS!~

im happy if you're happy

2008-10-19T20:51:00.002+08:00

im now at cuzzy's hse. they having open hse.
so im here from 3 which iis after madrasah.
so till now lah im here.

ohh i miss an. we didnt meet for like two days ready. so like fuck ah.
aiyaak. i miss you boyfriend. hmmm.
we are suppose to meet ah.
but den we might not be meeting up because he still raye-ING. aiyak!
pls sayang. i wanna meet u. (:

ok lah i have to go. i'll see you guys again. buhbye!

i love an!

WOOTS!~

2008-10-16T10:56:00.002+08:00

holla.
im sorry for the lonnggg never update mode. hahaha
okay and btw. im attached to raden muhd farhan. heh. *i love you*
but den we're on the rock rite now. i dont noe wat to say.
but hey love, i love you okay! (:

okay and so, hari raya was okay. quite fun lah kay.
going out with lovely ITE girlfriends. that was enjoyable.
waiting for the time to go out with the lovely work friends. hee.

going genting with friends on november. waiting for ayah to say okay.
i hope he will say okay. (:

aiya. i will update again when im free lah. class ending. herm.
so, bye.

btw, sayang im sorry if i did sth wrong or what,. really2 soprry.
i love you alot! (:

WOOTS~!

2008-09-27T02:32:00.002+08:00

oh i just cant fell asleep.

oh ya. i read thru my archives!
hahah. its damn funny lah can?
if you pepople were too read my previous updates from may 2006 onwards, that is so not me okay.
i mean. the jiwang2 thing. haha. really2 not me.
hahah. funny *laughing loudly*
aiyak. eqa eqa.
but just dont read lah. its so merepek can?
i mean i suddenly read it cause i was feeling bored.
skali the jiwang2 part of me breaking up with my ex was funny okay.
hahaha. all of it lah.
it was kinda true, i love him so.
but that was memories. muahaha!
ey, funny lah.
i cant believe it that im that kind of person.
aiyak. ey, but i miss him eh?
hahaha. and hey to Mr D!
you're back(:
like finally. hahaha.
because of you lah i started to read back my archives. muahaha.
im sorry aite.

okay. im here to say, GIRLS : dont trust much on NS guys. they sucks okay.
thanx lovely for calling me this late night just to make me laugh~
saaayaaang banyakbanyak same korang lah!
MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH!

gue cinta sama lu! ((:
aydah, thnx for the msg abt.... (i noe u noe aite)

weeee.
aku happy kape oi! ((:

WOOTS!

2008-09-27T02:01:00.003+08:00

im not feeling sleepy.
i just need to express my feelings here.
i dont trust in guys animore. (not all but, nvm)

hey you just suck lah.
if you really found a new girl, just say it out lah
you dont have to dissapear yourself and just msg me saying sorry, you're busy.
WHAT THE FUCK!
hey, if i know this would happen, i wouldnt want to get to noe you either!
f**ker!
andand i dont care what you wanna do now. antare kite, dah tkd pape!
eqa dah mls nak gadoh. nie up to you, to accept it or not.
im busy with my dance practice and stuffs, but i dont forget you okay.
as if NS is lyk giving you so many things to do this past few days.
before this, why wouldnt you want to say that?
why now?
fuck! go and die lah you!
I HATE YOU BTW!

andand. KeLs went out today! at last kay!
we were suppose to go to geylang to teman ati buy her baju raye.
at last we didnt go there.
kite peg BPP lah kan.
kpo2 dkt starbucks. kcu indra.
wah sey! indra dah jaD manager lah! haha
aku yang dah keje pizza hut setahun tk naek2. hhahah!
today was kind off fun. i dont nid to tell the details.
and send me home today.
ibu and ayah just reached home. and saw him. hahah!
eh an! cute tau kau!
malu2. hahah. ibu dont mind lah.
hahahah. i just cant stop laughing when he salam my parents just now.
muahahah! *evil grins*

okay. bored. i think thats it lah. i just wanna express that feelings earlier about this fucker.
aiyak! dont noe wat to say.
i hope the right guy will come one day!

PSSSST! : i miss you so((:

WOOTS!

2008-09-23T16:01:00.005+08:00

people just dont understand how difficult and hard it is to lose a special and good bestfriend of yours. how much i miss her love towards me.

shes different from what she is before. why? im not too sure.

people say im ego. not wanting to think about who's fault it is.

i am ego FYI. im the person who's get jealous easily.

i dont noe why. but i think i got jealous when she's having fun with others but not me.

i just need her back lah.

ive lost a bestfriend twice. i dont want to lose another bestfriend again.

how do i say this?

i miss you and i love you. pls im sorry if ive done sth wrong to you.

but i did that because i dont wanna lose you. thats all.

you're the best, you're the special one.

bestfriend, KAULAH SEGALANYA! ((:

you have to remember that phrase. heh.

whatever it is. pls forgive me.

i love you BESTFRIEND! (:

i've rebonded my hair back. it sucks big time.

they cut my hair short. it looks funny on me.

they cut it short infront but long at the back. isnt that obviously funny?

aiyak! okay lah. i gtg. working lah.

*LAZYbumbum!~

WOOTS!

2008-09-21T01:48:00.002+08:00

i miss dancing big shows. haiz.
okay so. ive just finish doing my madrasah project.
handind it in tmr. last min job. normal. eqa mah.
hmm. okay before tarian today, an brought me out.
i knew he wanted to bring me go buy his new bike. but he nvr told me that he already bought it lah.
once we're there, he already can collect it. okay i was shocked. obviously.
he bought bigger bike. hmm. its super 4 if im not wrong. and hmm. we waited lyk mcm stengah mampos ehk.
dr aku puase troz batal siot. bedek sak eqa.
haha. okay and i was suppose to reach cc at 430 today for show. but i reached ther like one hr later.
an sent me there. with his new bike. an! tkmo action ehk motor dah besar. and bwk laju.
ya2. andand. im the FIRST HONOURABLE PILLION to ride his new bike. yessa!
eqa woi. haha. today's show was okay. kind of lame. audience mcm siket nk mampos. tpi okay lah. dah lame aku tak perform. hmm.

soon after that training ended. so, i went home.
ibu cant stop talking about an since she saw an today. ishk. tk abes2!
its a long story. dont want tell you guys. let it be our secret. hmm.
story end about today. ya2.. i just reach home from lepak with yuyu and kecik. last min.
boring. went for smoke. den went home. haha. here i am btw.
okay stop.

btw. ytd sucks! long story.

i miss him. (:
help me. i want to be his gf! muahhahaha! *evil grins*
JANGAN MCM PAHAM EQA~ ((:

nites. time for me to sleep (:
weeee!

WOOTS!

2008-09-18T10:32:00.007+08:00

hollaa.
im at school now. so nothing to do till 12. aiyak!

andand. he suddenly msged me. wow. i feel so blessed! woots!
i miss him. how? i want him. aiyak!
i give up in him ready lah. spe nak jadi matae aku! hmpf!
hahaha. eqa klu dah give up, die give up abes ehk.

okay stop it eqa.
tmr last day of school.
i wont come to school. i dont care. hmpf!
its three weeks hols. i can sleep like pig at home. haha
hari raya coming. bahhs.
saturday, i have to perform at cc for lantern festival. aiyak.
bored pe. only me, fyqa and puts dancing. hmm..
so look out for me lah. haha! wateva!

im just bored. he was suppose to work and he doesnt want to come.
so im gonna have wait and miss him again. hmmm. how?
ey! i miss you lah! ((:

heyhey! he's hot! woots. he's aydah friend. i like looking at his pics. all mcm cool! woah.

hot oi die! aydah, nak jumpe die bley! heh. gatal eqa. ((:

WOOTS!

2008-09-17T13:21:00.002+08:00

im sorry for not updating and stuffs. here's the time we went out.
the most enjoyable day i had. the most fun time ive spend with them.
i love them. hmm.

oi! im starting to love someone. hahaha. how?? woots!
okay stop it.
so works getting fun. school closing soon.

god damn it!
my hair sucks. after dying it blonde. it changes to red and it sucks big time. grrrr!
its getting frizzier and getting easier to entangle.grr. fuck kan!

lovely girlfriends at school is loved.
they're so good and nice. and they're fine all the time! woots!

yana dah ade sisterhood bru! muahahaah! weeee.

GF's are loved! (((:

woots!

2008-09-13T13:36:00.002+08:00

im sorry for not updating aite.
hello again btw.

life getting sucks. so currently im not in the mood to update.
wait till i can update. watever it is, thanks to friends whom make me smile!

LOVED;

2008-08-15T00:32:00.002+08:00

im sorry about us.
i cant stop thinking bout our relationship.
i miss you every time i see you.
the love became stronger.
i regreted what i have done.
but too bad you're not into me animore.
im sorry i miss you.
im sorry i didnt get to be your precious and perfect girlfriend.
be happy, im sorry.

IMY <3

if you did read this, just to tell you im sorry, and dont hate me.

the love and joy we shared every single minute and day were precious to me. IMY.

i don't like looking at your face lah friend. get away from me. hate you!

2008-08-11T14:35:00.002+08:00

holla.
im officially back to single life again..
thanx to friends. thanx to you.
im sorry i dont love you.
love wasnt there only *sayang.
like some people say, tak bagus main kan perasaan org.
so im here not to continue this so that you wont feel awkward.
and im sorry once again.

i love YOU still okay.
im still waiting for the time when we will be back together.
i hope you would give me a chance for me to change for better.
i promise i will.

yesterday, we (IOE) went for oleta's b'dae at punggol park.
okay so, some who did say will come turn up. sian lor.
herm.. den first thing in the morning, i went to jenn's place to take all the foods.
den, we met weicai, meiqi and inah. den off we go to punggol park.
met the rest there.
reached punggol park, we were looking for the toilet. we went one whole round and we found it.
so we thot the toilet was near to the bbq pit.
but, its totally NOT. the toilet is lyk half round of the big park, nd we're in the middle of the park. around the park, there was a pond. so because of that pond, it makes the toilet very far.
so den we get bored, we went off at 8. me, jenn and inah went lepak instead of home.
we lepak at bb. nearer to home. haiyak.. heaven ehk.
den, went to pH awhile. wow! my mr * is working lah. hahaahah.. shhh.
yuyu, yana diam2 sdh. hahahaha
blarhs. den waited for yuyu to finish work, den we went home. heaven..

I JUST WOKE UP LAH KAY! hahaha
pemalas nyr eqa.. blarhs! okay so i think im gonna sleep again before i go to work.. bye!

sayonara!

LOVED;
eQa

2008-08-01T17:02:00.002+08:00

hello.
im currently at yana's hse.
wow cool or what ehk? she got a laptop.. hahah
i dun have any ehk.. thanks uhs..
hahah..tpi cool lah. herm btw, im bored.. haha
so lpk at her hse.. and this is cool. im using her laptop uhs. haha
okay2. i think i got to go. she nids the laptop to lend it to her bf.
so okay go..

btw, im attached to MR R? hahhaa.. thats what yana called him.. haha
okay and i think you may want to see eqa back to usual person.
so im gonna change back. thanks to you sayang.. im happy to be your girlfriend..
love you okay..
im sorry to zai btw. you dont love me anymore. and i dont want to be hoping for you animore. herm..
if you love me, you would want me back. but too bad i think i have to move on. takkaire love. no matter what i love you so.

RAMDAN, i love you (:

LOVED;
eQa

2008-07-30T21:18:00.001+08:00

people change in time.
in a second, people can change their hearts.
PEOPLE CHANGE.

LOVED;
eQa

2008-07-25T09:23:00.002+08:00

In Loving Memories of Azli Beng..
The person who use to disturb me at work..
With his "pointing fingers" (some ppl noes it)
He Passed Away on 24 July 2008..
Semoga RohMu Dirahmati Allah..(if im not wrong, not sure)
*Amin..

okay.. so i think i shud not be sad.. whats gone is already gone..
i cant do anything.. but its quite sad to noe he goes like that..
two days before i saw him at work.. his joke and his laugh..
and suddenly this shocking thing happened.. how shud i say...

to his family, im sorry to hear that.. be strong.. ingat Allah.
semue nie ketentuan Illahi.. its fated for him to go..
we cant do anything..

We from BBC Pizza Hut Management mengucapkan Salam Takziah..
*Amin

okay.. people.. i think its better for me to ack off rite? haiya..
i dunno wat to do lah.. ishk
someone loves him.. i love him.. haiyoo.. how?
but zai? he doesnt love me animore. urghhh..
i shud move on.. blearghhh... dunno wat to say..
since im still at school.. its such a boring day today. 2 hrs of school only..
den got shows.. hermm. okay.. i going now.. bye...

LOVED;
eQa

2008-07-21T22:41:00.002+08:00

i was caought smoking by my dad in the toilet just few minutes ago..
hahaha. stupid eqa. and i lyk tongong2 doesnt lyn his noise..hehs!
okay so today after went home straight den went out again..
with my darling daughters.. inah and liza..
we went queensway to buy our SBM things den to jurong point for the other thing.
okay cool.. we got our things readi. left a bit more. so have to wait.
okaythen im sleep now. damn sleepy. hahah.
and oh ya! im gonna rebond my hair! yay! happy or what ehk?
hehs. this is cool man. woah..
you will see the new EQA in just a min. hhahaha..no lah
btw, tomorrow we are having this blood donation thingy.
which is from your own wish lah.
and i will be going. im one of them.
so tmr, i will be seriously lack of blood. hahaha!
funny.. den see you guys again... eqa *Sleeping*

btw, do you im too useless? or do you thing im lyk doing a stupid thing?
or you think im crazy?
because you can see everywhere in this blog....
there's ZAI's name....
hahahaha..
yes im too hurt and i need him. he LIED.

THANKS!

LOVED;
eQa

2008-07-20T00:02:00.002+08:00

im going to lalaland in a few minutes time.
wah. sleep or what ehk..
hehes.
i finished work at 8 today. but den went lepak with yana and friends.
and ended up going home late. haha
den sleepy, angry with everyone. bodoh sey eqa!
hahahas..

girlfriend, im sorry if i snatched yours.
if you want him, you may have him.
im not the one who started msging him.
he started it first.
and so, i fall in love.
but the thing is i did have a crush on him before.
its an usual thing you see.
i cried because im scared of losing a girlfriend like you/
who cared for me.
i promise you, if you want him, i'll give him to you.
i wont msg him anymore. i promise.
tears that rolled down from my eyes, are simply because i felt guilty.
you just dont understand me.
girl , im sorry from the bottom of my heart.

FARHAN, dont stop talking to me.
who will if not you.
who wil disturb me at work if not for you.
who will just disturb my boncit-NESS and pinching my face if not you?
haiyak. plsss lah i love you as a friend okay.
i need you at work to make me smile. okay?
promise me okay?
LOVED!

ELIYANA, be my best okay.
who will care for me when i cry if not you.
who will help me if im in need.
who will hug me if im sad.
who will just love me as who i am... *the noisy, irritatin girlfriend of yours. hehs
who will? other than you..

IZZATI, be my bestfriend everyday okay.
who will just be there for me.
who will cry with me when i cry.
who will go crazy with me.
who will go "gugugaga" about nothing..hahaha
just be the one that you are now.

ZAINUDDIN, *nothing to confess*
*nothing to say*
*nothing to talk about*
just the person who changed me.

im here letting my misses and loves to you people.
okay. plsss just be there.
cause just now, and right now, i need you guys badly in my life..
i just LOVE you guys alot...(:

LOVED;
eQa

okay.. i think i have to say bye and goodnight to everyone..
my time to go lalaland...
peace! (:

2008-07-16T17:21:00.002+08:00

probably im not yet ready for a new relationship?
hahha.you're too good. suddenly i thot so of this.
you can find a better person. im not tt perfect girl who can be a perfect girlfriend for you.
when he himself cannot tolerate with this useless girlfriend attitude.
see how useless i am okay.
guys leaving me of not contributing and giving commitment on our relationship.
so i think its best for you to find other better girls out there. im sorry.
to YOU, im sorry. but we can still be friends.
i love you, you see. but my heart needs him. loves him.
your love to me is nice, but the love has yet to come and heal this broken heart..
hahaha. eqa bobal mcm phm..hahaha.
okay but im speaking the truth lah. if he really loves me, he would be willing to wait for me. like how zai does.. see.
true love are hard to find. haiyak. i dont noe lah.
watever it is, hey love, i like you. but it has to take step by step okay.
LOVES:eQa

nd hello smellyheads!
i just got back from school. oh im fcuking tired lah can? sleepy also..
oh wat a sleepyhead i am. school sucks today. projects, projects and projects.
but the happiest thing is that CHEW was not around. hahahaha.
im soooo happy. btw, hey girl if you want tt, i'll give it to you. you're always welcome to get it. *smiling*
smelly me not yet shower. hahaha
oh ya smellyheads...
after BEO(business events oragnisation) just now, which is at 4, the usual girlfriends sat at a pondok maybe. dont now wats the name. hehs. okay. waiting for three more girlfriends. and as we were talking and laughing happily, i suddenly saw a frog hopping towards us lah okay! i shouted and we ran..
hahahah. that was funny okay. you see the three anak dara's was shouting in the school mcm sekolah tu bapak aku pnye! hahahah
funny lah.. people the frog is disgusting okay! urghhhh! *geli*
okay lah people. i think its already time for me to sleep..hahahhah
*nites* no sorry smellyheads, wrong.. its *afternoon* hehs...(:

bye SMELLYHEADS(:

2008-07-16T14:15:00.002+08:00

ohh. how shud i say this? i miss zai? ya.. i doo. really. seriously.
i need you here. leading me as how you did these past months we're togth. i need you badly.
im smiling and laughing outside but no one understands my inner part of feelings.
if you were to read this post of mine, i just wanna tell you i miss you alot. i noe ive not been a great girlfriend. but youve changed me alot. from asking me stop smoking. i tried, but ive cut down alot. but you knew i only smoked too much if im stress. you 're the only guy who loved me the way i want. i need you badly baby. how i wished if we were togth again. i promised i will change for the best of our relationship. but i noe you woudnt want this to happend. hermm. its okay lah.
i can cry in the inside but i will still smile on the outside.
since tt day, you've treated me lyk a doll whom you cant talk to. you dont treat me lyk you used to animore.baby, im sorry your father knew about that. im sorry i made you cry. im sorry i dissapoint your parents and you. im sorry for everything. but i promise you and i promise myself i will change for the better. give me this chance. baby, people is asking about us. i dont noe wat to say. people whu noes, understand me, people whu dont noe, is talking bad things about you. and people whu really really dont understand is puting the blame on me. and i really admit its my fault. plss. baby plsss. i need you badly.
i noe you wouldnt want us to be back togth cause ive hurt you twice. but im just telling everyone here that i miss and love you alot. only that im shy to let my feelings out to you and to let you noe that i need you in times. i prefer to be alone not with you cause i noe i would let my anger out to you. but you and people doesnt understand me. i dont mean to hurt you. and i tot u wud understand. whereas you told a bestfriend of mine that i didnt give time for our relationship. i noe i was wrong on that part. but i do not want to disturb you. a girlfriend with so much problem. would you want to spent time with me the whole day? i noe you wouldnt. sedangkan you takde time nak msg i?
i love you. alot. i mean alot. i dont mean to hurt you and your family. im sorry.
baby, forgive me. the smoking thing, im trying my best now. ive not been buying ciggarettes the past one week. but i do smoke. but not always. really. if i can stop drinking for your sake, why wouldnt i stop smoking for your sake? you just have to wait. you said you would wait....
BABY, i remembered when you hold my hand tight, when you hugged me, when you say, "baby, i love you" plssss.. i wan this thing back badly. not to say im desperate or what, its just tt i miss him alot.

BESTFRIEDNS, plsss understand me. he's just th normal guy who loves me the way i am. i noe he do loves me. i think its my wrongdoing towards him.ive not been concentrating on him. haiyak. but the other thing is that i think he have a new girl. maybe. im not sure. haiz....
plss understand me people. i just need him. plssss. badly...

if BESTFRIENDS wanna find me a new boyfriend, pls find me a guy who can help me change like how zai does. plssss. if that guy really can be like him, i love you people lah. but watever kay girls....hahahaha.i want him! bluek! but this new guy quite cool maybe? herm... sorry.. but heart still craving for his love. but if you can love me now, i promise maybe i will give u an ans... LOVES, EQA

PS: baby, im happy to know you. and i love you alot. from the bottom of my heart.. Eqa Sayang Zai. (: im soryry once again for my wrong-doings. i promise i'll change baby.. from me to you....LOVES. *winks*